hello all I am doing well, but I am up 5lbs form the cruise. We had a blast, and GHot a ton of exercise. WIll have more to say tomorrow.

Hello,
I got up this morning and did my Power Walk DVD. I felt like it would set the tone for the day and it has. I have my points reported and planned my meals around them. It's amazing how easy this can be IF I just put this first and then plan my day around it. I forget that so easily and I let other things that I feel I HAVE to do become more important.

I shouldn't and no one else should...WE must take care of ourselfs first. I'm going to repeat that to myself all week and really try to do it. I bet my week goes much smoother with that focus.

Welcome to Malviti: This is such a caring group..you have come to a very wonderful place. I'm looking forward to getting to know you.

Holly: First of all...here's a (((HUGGG))). Now just because you are feeling this way doesn't mean that you are, so get that thought out of your head...You are BEAUTIFUL....no matter what the weight is on the scales. Really you are...the number on the scales is something you can change and only you can do it. What do you need from us to help you get turned around?

UPS: Can't wait to hear about the cruise. I'm going on one in September. Tell me all about it.

Ladies, I've got some office organizing to do, so I'm off to work on it. See you in the next couple of days.

Susie

Susie~ you touched my heart. I wish I KNEW what I needed. Prayer will help.
A hug was great!!!

Hello everyone.....

First of all....Holly I feel like I am your soulmate on this.....no matter what I seem to do, I just don't lose. I wish I could figure it out.....maybe someone can help us out there???!!!!????

I am feeling MUCH better, got antibiotics last Monday and stayed home from work a few days...then went back to work, but have been taking it easy, resting and napping alot...but feel back to normal today!

I went to lunch last week with a friend who has lost about 80 pounds I think after WLS....she looks great and seems to do fine. It is not an option I would consider, but I hate that I eat healthy and just don't seem to lose. I KNOW that I have to exercise, I know that it makes a big difference, but it seems like the time is hard to carve out. Now that sounds crazy, since I am single, I should be able to find the time, I guess, in all honesty, I just don't make the time! So I am going to make a conscience effort this week to "find the time". Even if only for 1/2 hour to walk the track at the Y. Oh jeez I have to do something!!!!

Trying to hang in there...Lilybutt

I love Louise Hay, read her books for years now there stuff online.
http://www.libralion.com/hay.htm

Gotta get my head in the right place.
Hello, my name is Hollyhock and I am way too fat. LOL!!! Maybe I need a weekly meeting. Or a 2X4 over my head. The bottom line is I am fat.
Hubby said the other day when I was givng a list of what I needed to do, “hey do I come last”. No, I do. sigh. It was actually a good sincere convo.

My van will go to the garage today. I definitely blew the motor. we will have a used motor put in. I will be without wheels most of the week.
All 4 of us went out last night to deliver Avon books. In a way we are having a lot of togetherness. Hubby has been pleasant about it.He has been available to taxi us all around. It will give him a hands on view of all I do!

I want to look at and print out the body clutter sheets from flylady. I need to make cookies for school parties tomorrow.Need to make some Avon calls, agenda for school council,school council calls......that’s a start.

We had our Annual meeting for church yesterday. As Communication Liaison, i spoke on my concerns about participation from other families and ended up hearing from many how valued I was. I was not looking for that but it sure was nice. My point was that other parents and families give dozens of excuses about why they dont have time to give or participate but i have those same “excuses” if not more but still volunteer 20 hours a month to the church. So, why am I telling my kids for 2 hours on a Saturday morning they need to wait for mommy to finish the church newsletter when others are relaxing and spendng quality time with thier kids, if it is not balanced, valued etc.....

It was well recieved and a good discussion followed.

Just DS has school. The 5yo boy who went part time will be off on non school days,like today so I will now have 5 for the morning and the 2 go home, so, 3 for the aft.

Hello Everyone....

I admit, I have been so bad with eating and not exercising. I need to get a grip. Holly, I am right there with you, feeling FAT and unattractive. I am going back to Weight Watchers tonight. I gained back 15 of the 25 I had lost before. I need to get physched about it again.

Hello and welcome to all the newbies, wow we are growing by leaps and bounds.

Tomorrow is Valentines day and I just hate it. I guess if I were in a great relationship it would be different.

I got a new vacuum 2 weeks ago and just love it. I have vacuumed the entire house 3 times since getting it.

Have a remarkable day!

Annie

Good morning ladies!! Yes, we all feel fat and unattractive sometimes, but we have to look at those who love and value us for WHO we are. Being on the cruise was a little tough because there were all these people who looked like they were size 2's and I had to look at my self everyday (the room had mirrors all over it) and see that I am a size 22. But I looked at how I was behaving on the cruise. DH and I exercised everyday, watched what we ate, and had a great time just being who we are. These "little people" even though they were little sat around all day, slept in and ate like pigs. I could not imagine what my body would feel like if that was me. I had so much energy just from eating better. The key here is that you are trying to change your lifestyle. It takes a lot of hard work, but will be worth it in the end. I may not have ever met you ladies, but I think you are beautiful adn would not change a thing about your attitudes! YOu have helpe me when I have been at my lowest, and now I am going to be here for you (and me)I have just loved hearing all about you guys and I hope you realise just how special you are. We CAN do this together!!

((huggs))

I am at 200lbs this morning 00000hhh so clooooose

Hey guys,
Everyone sounds so down. I wish I could reach out and give everyone a big hug
I'm glad I still get outside with my new position. I was afraid I was going to be tied to the desk. I had a wonderful day with ton of exercise then I made it to curves. I finally weighted today. I'm down 7lbs for the month. I'm finally over 1/2 way to my goal. Bad news is I now can only have 26 pts.

Annie: I'm fond of valentines day It's my b-day, but as I get older it sure doesn't mean the same as when I turned 16...LOL

Aahhee: GREAT JOB

You ladies be kind to yourselves. You are all truly beautiful, unique and talented individuals.

I signed a contract with myself from flylady.com's Body clutter section and printed out tracking sheets. I recorded what went in , each morsel, and then just plugged it into fitday.com. The content was not great nor the nutrition but I recorded it and that is a start. Looking forward to 3 little people tomorrow all the big people will be in school. Nap tim ewill be a joy!
I worked up my income and expenses for day care in January. I worked 52.5 hours a week and cleared(net) $175.00 a week. SIGH, AM I crazy or do I just plain love my kids and hubby. Any income is better than none.
Off to bed.

Well made it to the Y today...but it has been hectic....worked until 4:30, got to the Y at 5, walked 40 minutes....2 miles! Got home at 6, ate a salad for dinner, changed and left at 7:15 to teach a nite class and back home at 10! Woooooo eeeeeee. Now SF hot cocoa and watch the tape of the bachelor! One day down and all is good! Tomorrow is Valentines and hoping for dinner with my sweetie if he doesn't have work commitments! So eating light all day to save up!

Trying to hang on...hoping it gets easier!
Lilybutt

Holly : (((HUGZZZ))) your beautiful , thanks for sharing the Louise Hay webbie.
Debbie: Woot!, congrats!. I'm 26pts and its plenty to eat - if you make the right choices
Susie: you're amazing
Ellen: you'll lose them soon
aahhee: Way to go, you're almost there!!!
Newbies: Welcome!!


Ladies, one word, Accountability. I think its the word I hate the most right now because I've been putting of logging points and exercise...

I had a little trouble yesterday with the sweets that were around for Valentines Day. My secret sister gave me some cookies. They were iced sugar cookies--I LOVE THESE!-- I had 3 throught the day and there were 5 left. I just knew I would eat the rest of them so I threw them in the trash. It was not an easy thing for me to do--but I felt so empowered after I did it.

I wish I could overcome the cravings I have for sugar. I believe that they are physical and emotional. I'm not sure how to get over it. I know I need to do some research into it so I can overcome it. That's how I do things; I gather information and then apply it. It's just that I haven't taken the time to gather the info.

I have been exercising this week and I feel so much better. I'm getting spring fever and when I get that way I really start to focus on getting in shape and losing weight, so that's a good thing for me to have. I know it will feel wintery again but I need to foucs on the spring fever feeling that I get.

My goal today is no refined sugar and a lot of water.

Debbie: You are doing so well. Don't worry about the points; it will be enough for you..your body is smaller and you don't need as much.

I like the statement about the accountability. It does seem that we need to do that for ourselfs.

I see us working through our issues and that we are coming up with ways to deal with them and ladies we should applaud ourselves for that. Just think of the many years that when these emotions came we feed them with food and didn't seek a way to get through them...THIS time we ARE!

I feel good about that don't you?

It's time for me to go to work. Today is a new day..let's use it to our best ability..I know we can!!

Hugs,
Susie

How do I take care of me?

I am tired. I stayed up til midnight again, up at 6:30 this morning.
I started to feel anxious about a letter I wrote my daycare families giving them a summary of service etc. One Mom said to me, “you dont owe us an explainantion. I would NEVER give people that information."I am caring for their children. I increased my rates in the new year. Some are concerned. I wanted them to see how it is and remind them of the service they are getting.
My anxiety was about a life long need to be heard and seen. I was basically ignored all my life by my parents. When ever I try to be heard when something mattered I got fluffed off or put down. So, I started to doubt my decision to give this summary.Was it just a cry out to be heard or was it necessary?Or was it necessary for my well being so okay? Iw as feeling devalued by one family and I was feeling misunderstood. I dont feel misunderstood now.
It is hard sometims not to be that 9 year old kid being kicked to the curb.

This has greatly shaped my my parenting and marriage choices. I have heard a million times from my Mom how hard it was to be my mother.There was no time to be there for me, she didn’t have a car how could she have come to get me in a blizzard, my sister needed her more etc.....

So, back to yesterday’s question, how do I fit taking care of me into the list of things I do? Is still dont know because 1) my son is very needy and exhausting.Will I take time for myself and turn my back on him when I have the ability to nurture him, no. It is a small price to pay for the short time I have to make sure his path in life is okay.
2) DD although not needy deserves the same amount of time and caring, 3)I have made employment choices that mean I work long hours and creates chaos in my home on some levels BUT allows me to be here for my kids whenever they need me. I would not give up the joy of seeing their faces light up when those bus doors open at 3:30 and they rush down the srairs into my arms. 3 other kids rush into my arms too. Their parents have never seen or felt this joy.

It is about FLYing ( Finally Loving Yourself) for me, finding the balance somehow.

DS is in engrossed in Olympic hockey.I will have DD and 4 other all day today. I will focus on tidying and 2 loads of laundry and making Avon phone calls.
No plans tonight.
LAst night all 4 of us went to the city for DD to go to gymnastics. Hubby dropped me and DS at Sam’s Club and came and got us after. He stayed with DD. It was great. suggested we do this every other week, even if my van is running. It was a good use of time and family time together. Really, We ALL go to hockey twice a week and DD is bored out of her mind. Makes sense to me.

Good Morning and HUGS!!!