Wow Faye - that is alot to swallow ( literally ) ... I think that it is great that you realized this and can now deal with it...Good for you and good luck !!!!!
:cp: :grouphug:

Afternoon Chicksters,

I am here, as promised, but, honestly, I AM EATING, EATING, EATING!! :devil: JUST WENT TO MCDONALDS, CAME HOME AND KEPT RIGHT ON EATING, FIDDLE FADDLE AND COOKIES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!:devil: :devil:
I NEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEED SOME HELP...I KNOW I AM SPIRALING AND SPIRALING, AND SPIRALING. I KNOW (INTELLIGENTLY, RATIONALLY, INTELLECTUALLY, I CANNOT DO THIS!!! BUT I KEEP RIGHT ON EATING LIKE THERE IS NO TOMORROW. INSTEAD OF DOING WHAT I KNOW WORKED. INSTEAD OF LOOKING BACK AT MY ACCOMPLISHMENTS, AND MY AMAZING LOSS SINCE JUNE OF LAST YEAR, AND REALIZING ALL THE BLESSINGS I RECEIVED, THROUGH THE DISCIPLINE OF STAYING ON A PROGRAM, I EAT!! INSTEAD OF LOVING MYSELF, AND TAKING CARE OF MYSELF I EAT!! INSTEAD OF FEELING WORTHY OF A HEALTHY BODY, MIND AND SPIRIT, I EAT.................well you get it I am sure.
I love you all, and I WILL BE HERE TOMORROW. I PROMISE. :)

Faye - :grouphug: I understand. I think this revelation will be good for you and could mark a new chapter in your journey. To us you ARE PERFECT!!

PAM - Oh Pam sweetie - I understand where you are 100%!!. I have been in exactly the same place - it just seems impossible to get back on that horse and start again. I've been waiting for the motivation and passion to come and it just hasn't, so I've decided to act anyway! I've set myself some very small targets for ONE WEEK, just so I can get used to discipling myself again, but nothing too overwhelming. After one week, I will review my targets again. Today I had my first on programme day in months and I drank more than my water target. I suggest you give it a go - just small targets, such as 'I will only eat at mealtimes', or whatever. (see my previous post today for my targets). I'm hoping that the more I get used to disciplining myself, the more motivation and passion I will get as I go along. Thats the plan anyway!
You have been our star slimmer for so long and have made wonderful achievements - so don't feel guilty - you've taken the first step by posting here. Set yourself ONE target for tomorrow and take it from there!

Take care!

Love Amanda xxx

Just wanted to check in , I have not felt very good today, having a bad period , first one since September, I sure was hoping I was thru having them, guess not.
Tomorrow is a new day and for those of us, including me, I hope we wake up with more will power than we had today and hope life is a little more happier too.
Faye , I will say a special prayer for you. Facing your problems is the first step to coming to terms with them.
Hope everyone has a good night and a better tomorrow, Donna

Evening ladies!

Pam: I KNOW beyond a shadow of a doubt you can pick yourself up and get back to where you were. YOU MUST SIT IN A CHAIR QUIETLY and look at what is causing you to be out of control again. It can be a lot of things, you know. We were all dumb bunnies and gave ourselves permission to eat like pigs over the holidays and now our bodies don't want to go back to being good but we HAVE TO MAKE IT! Maybe you have some issues with Jane, issues with work or stress in either of those areas, maybe you are not getting enough sleep and so eating is comforting to you, but try and make your comfort zone that one where you are back on track exercising, eating right and then your body is humming right along. I told Jack tonight I can always tell when I am on track because I just FEEL good. I have been dong well for nearly 2 weeks now and my body knows it. I am able to sleep well again (except for getting up and peeing 400 times during the night! :lol: ) My soul is more joyful and I am deeply contented. Part of that is what happened yesterday, but it is also the fact that I have de-yucked my body again.

We are a like a flock of birds. Birds fly in a certain formation and stay together. They don't travel their own way here and there, they travel in unison and starting tomorrow that is what WE ARE ALL GOING TO DO! We are not going to mess up the formation by continuing to eat badly, not exercise and not get in that water. This group of birds is going to heal themselves as a group so I want you to commit to doing this. Commit to being part of the group and that means that everyone of us has to do our individual part by taking care of ourselves properly! This one is not up for discussion, we are just GOING TO DO IT! I told the very first group that started this thread with me that I HATE whining and excuses. We are not going to whine about what we are doing wrong and not excuse the fact that we are too preoccupied to get on that treadmill or whatever. We are going to look this in the eye and say, I am going to defeat you, I am going to get healthy, I am going to get into an exercise routine and learn to love it and I am going to feed my body properly with good food and plenty of water! I am not going to hide, I am not going to gripe, I am not going to excuse myself. I am going to be proud, stick my chin out and GO FOR IT! You are all incredible women with incredible spirits and I know that you can overcome anything and the time is NOW to overcome!

**I WANT EVERYONE TO READ THESE LYRICS. THEY ARE THE OLD SPIRITUAL THAT THE BLACKS IN THIS COUNTRY HAVE MADE THEIR ANTHEM, BUT THIS SHOULD BE OUR ANTHEM TOO! I CHANGED ONE WORD FROM SOME DAY TO TODAY. SO PRINT THIS PUPPY OUT, PUT IT ON YOUR MIRROR OR YOUR FRIDGE, YOUR TV OR YOUR TREADMILL BECAUSE THIS SAYS IS ALL! **

1. We shall overcome
We shall overcome
We shall overcome today
Oh deep in my heart
I do believe
We shall overcome today


2. We'll walk hand in hand
We'll walk hand in hand
We'll walk hand in hand today
Oh deep in my heart
I do believe
We shall overcome today


3. We shall all be free
We shall all be free
We shall all be free today
Oh deep in my heart
I do believe
We shall overcome today

4. We are not afraid
We are not afraid
We are not afraid today
Oh deep in my heart
I do believe
We shall overcome today

5. We are not alone
We are not alone
We are not alone today
Oh deep in my heart
I do believe
We shall overcome today

6. The whole wide world around
The whole wide world around
The whole wide world around today
Oh deep in my heart
I do believe
We shall overcome today

7. We shall overcome
We shall overcome
We shall overcome today
Oh deep in my heart
I do believe
We shall overcome today


I Love you all and look forward to this journey together!

Faye ;)

Faye, once again you amaze me and affirm that I am in the right place. Seriously. Thank you for being brave enough to call some shots, and for having the right focus.

EVERYBODY: I want to get to know you more. I am going to make an effort to attend the chat next week.

4 points for me today, just tooling along. Felt sick today, it took a lot of umph to get out and walk. Getting used to a new schedule and such. Have some health concerns, need to make an appointment. Ok!, the end for today. Good job everyone!

Kim