The nightmare is back.......Please pray for Desiree. Some of you might remember that Dez was hospitalized for depression and suicide attemps. Well I noticed that she has been taking her sleeping pills again and she has been missing school because she can't sleep or has a headache. She is a top student when she is well. I came across one of her emails this morning saying that she is depressed and she was going to attempt suicide this weekend but Jason's girlfriend happen to come over at that time and give her a hug. She said that saved her life. I noticed that she started wearing an elastic on her wrist. This is something that was part of her therepy. When she felt the urge to hurt herself she was to snap it. I asked her about it and she said she was using it for when she wanted sweets. I just don't know what to do. I called her doctor but haven't heard back. I don't want to have to hospitalize her again. If we do we have no control or say. I thought that she would be ok from now on but as soon as something comes up she can't cope. She has an intrest in her first guy and he doesn't was leading her on. She now knows he doesn't like her. I think that this is what is depressing her. I feel like a wreck now. Not good. Oh well I am going to leave this in your hands........PLEASE PRAY!!!!!!
Dearest Dee,
I'm so sorry for what you are going through. I know how worried you must be. Please make sure you take care of yourself so you can help Dez. Is Larry at home or on the road? I know you have a lot of friends and family there so please let them help you also. I wish I had some answers to the problem, but all I can do is tell you I'm here for you and will be praying without ceasing. Please, please keep us updated and know that you have lots of loving thoughts being sent your way. Take care.
Love you,
Ramona
My heart goes out to you and Desiree. Is she on any regular medication? Nine years ago when my daughter was 16, she tried to commit suicide. There was a lot going on in my life at the time and I never even saw it coming. She was hopitalized for awhile , then put on a anti-depressant for a year. The doctors said she suffering from border-line manic depression.
I know what you are going through and will keep you in my prayers. Please email me if you just want to talk [email protected]. Please take care of yourself!!
I wish I could say or do the right thing to make all your pain go away.Especially the pain that Dez feels. If I could do magic...it would be for Dez.
If I lived in Canada or you here, I would be right there by your side with hugs and to wipe away tears.Since that can't happen....All I can do is PRAY and be HERE for you a zillion miles away. Here's a BIG HUG!! {{{ Hug }}} Did you feel that?
If you or your husband think that Dez is not acting like herself, being very depressed, shutting you or her friends out....PLEASE make that call to the Dr!!!! She may get angry for you doing it, But I promise you SHE WILL THANK YOU ONE DAY FOR IT!!!
Please remember that we're here for you!!!! I may not know for sure what you should do....BUT I do know that I can be a FRIEND!
We are also thinking of you. Hopefully, her doctor has made contact with you and has some suggestions. If she is suppose to be taking medication, make sure that she is taking it. If so, then it may be her medication needs to be adjusted. I know the medical care in Canada is different than here, so not sure exactly how it works. But know you'll do what it takes to get her what she needs. Hugs.
You and your daughter are in my thoughts and prayers. I will say an extra rosary tonight. Please keep us posted and know that we are all with you in spirit.
Here is the reason why I was alarmed. Here is her email to a friend.
hey babez, how are you doing? me not so great, i had a really crappy weekend, cryed most of it. but oh well, things haven't gotten better, and i don't presume that they will anytime soon. well i was sick yesterday because i didn't get enough sleep. and i stayed home t'day because i am becoming really depressed and i don't really care about anything anymore, i just want to give up. but oh well. so i'm sitting here, thinking, hey, i didn't call Jessie back yesterday, i should email her now. well that's what i'm doing. so i hope that you had fun with the horses. i thought about you ALL weekend...we so HAVE to get together next weekend, i need "Jessie Love". well i just need any love. and DAN, OH GOD, DAN!!! *angered face*, i realized that he doesn't like me nothing more then "just" a friend. i agree with jason that he used me and didn't really want to presute anything with me. OMG, you know what he said to me on suday. he's like" is it wrong to make out with someone that you don't know" and he was like super happy ALL day. so baisically, he went to a party on saturday nite, and made out with the "random" chick ALL nite. He also told me that he had taken this other girl on a date, a couple of them. Remember that i told you about my neightbor that's 14. like JEEZE, she's 14 and he's like almost 18, i really don't think that is rite. he's taken her to the movies and everything. so i guess that he wasn't shy or didnt' really have time for me. i think he really didnt like me. so W/E!, god i'm so mad, and sad. i can't believe that i'd let him do this to me. i'm sorry jessie i should have listened to you. i just always believed that he knew that i cared about him and that i liked him and i didn't think that he would hurt me THIS much. we did talk for like 3 hours about a whole lot of things, but nothing that i "wanted" to talk about. if you get my drift. he is a really nice guy, and i know that he wants to be my friend. oh god i could have killed him yesterday. him and ashly and this other guy pat, were being so mean, they made me cry, but i don't think that they knew that i was crying, but oh well. i really don't think that anyone cares. omg jessie i became sucidal...it scared me. i was sooo upset.. i had a horriable weekend even before i came to my scences about dan.. i didn't sleep ALL weekend, and cryed most of it. it was horriable, i feel like **** jessie. i dont think i'll ever be able to love again, if it hurts THIS much. *tears*, there wasn't anyone there. i was sitting here on my computer contemplating things, and as i was going to get up to get something, ashley walked up to me and hugged me. literally, that hug saved my life... *more tears*, i don't know what i was going to do jessie, i hate my life, it's becoming so crapy and i can't stand it. there's nothing going good, nothing at all, well there's you, but that's really it, i hate it jessie, i really do. i'm sorry to put this all on you. but right now i feel that you are really the only person that cares, if you still do...i'm not really sick today, i just don't want to face people. i sat in my bed ALL morning and cried. it was horriable, i hate it. i'm not a cryer and i shouldn't be crying, i hate it when i do. oh well, i guess i better go now, i dont' want my mom catching me crying or she'll get all "touchy feely" and i don't want to put up with her now. talk to you later. give me a call t'nite if you have time. i love you jessie
Dee: I feel for your family right now. Does the school where Dez goes, have a counseler she could visit with? Did they offer couseling to the students when the classmate killed himself?
I hope you have heard back from the Doctor by now. I really do not know what to say other then for you to know that I offer my support when you need it.
Does Dez have any hobbies? I read somewhere to replace a positive behavior with every negative behavior. Just a thought.....
I remember my first love, I too was heart broken and it took years for me to recover. I wish your family the very best and I will say an extra prayer for Dez tonight.
Poor Dez. Not too many people know this about me, but when I was 17, I was a hair's breadth from committing suicide. I promise you, I had the razor in my hand. Thankfully, I must have had an angel watching over me, because I chickened out.
I can truly say I know how much pain Dez is in, and I am so glad she has a mama that loves her so much. When my mom found out, she didn't seem all that concerned.
You girls are wonderful. Thnk you for all the support. It brought me to tears. You will never know how much each one of you have helped me. You all mean a lot to me. Thanks for the hugs, prayers and warm words. It really helps.
I just wanted to say that Dez was on meds from november 2000 til june 2002. She was in and out of hospital in 2000 and 2001. She is off meds now, and seemed to be ok. The doctors thought that if she was treated for a long enough time that this may never occur again.
I talked to her yesterday and told her that I knew she was depressed. She admitted it and we had a good talk. She never admitted to being suicidal but I think at the time she was ok. She seen her pcychologist yesterday. I know that she was there for almost 2 hours. Because she is 16 they do not disclose anything to the parents.
I will keep up updated.
I Need Your Help
Did you feel that?
Not too many people know this about me, but when I was 17, I was a hair's breadth from committing suicide. I promise you, I had the razor in my hand. Thankfully, I must have had an angel watching over me, because I chickened out.
