Hi Julia - I am not a morning person either.

Yeah I am addicted a looking at those sites, I got a pamper package last November and will finally get to use it on 26th Feb. It took that long to get a reservation and I rang first week in December. I actually wanted mid week in January.

There is one going at the moment for a high tea for 2 at my favourite cafe in the city includes champagne $65 for 2. I have never done high tea, but I don't want a food reward anymore so it looks like I will be passing. LOL

Vanessa Lindeman Island will be awesome! That's something great to look forward to :D

My ex and I broke up in December and because he's got no money he couldn't afford to go anywhere so I've allowed him to stay living with me and my mum at her place. He slept with someone 3 weeks after we split and that broke my heart, we discussed it then and I told him that I couldn't handle living with him if he's going to be dating so he promised he wouldn't.

Well last night he spent the night with a new lady friend so this morning I told him that he needs to move out. He is mad at me and doesn't think it's fair that I kick him out but he needs to know that while he may be ready to move on I'm not ready to see him do it.

It'll be hard for him because he really can't afford to go anywhere but I'm realising that that's not my problem. I need him gone and hopefully he'll find something soon so that I can start healing and move on myself.

Unfortunately it'll likely mean that I'll never see the $1000 that he owes me but that may just have to be the sacrifice that I need to make.


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The 12s were a bit big actually - bought 3 x size 10 pants tonight! One jeans, one jeggings, one work pants. I am watching Biggest Loser and about to head to the gym for an hour or two.

OMG GEN size 10 woohooo BIATCH lol.

Julia, I think its not just the fact that he is doing this around you but doing it in someone elses home fullstop where he has been taken in and givenm a break. why couldnt they have gone to HER place?

It would be a little like a kick in the face :(

Von it's amazing, he genuinely thinks I'm being unreasonable. He just doesn't get why he should have to move out just because he's met someone. Honestly!

Well more to the point, why on earth should he stay at your mother's if he no longer has a relationship with you (or her)? He should be grateful for the time he's had already!

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Well more to the point, why on earth should he stay at your mother's if he no longer has a relationship with you (or her)? He should be grateful for the time he's had already!

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Exactly right ladies! It boggles my tiny mind that he thinks I'm being unreasonable. Anyway, he says he's started looking so here's hoping he'll be outta there soon.

Last night I had a lovely 2 hour pamper package - foot reflexology, full body massage and a facial. So nice! Tonight it's back into the training and I'm going to attempt an 8km run.

Wish me luck!


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Just make sure you give him a deadline, so he can't move slowly or drag it out!

Finally my 3 month wait for my appt with GI doc is here tomorrow morning... hoping he can sort out my damn reflux.

Forgot to say - you inspired me Julia and last night at the gym I did a few intervals of walking for 4 mins then jogging for 2-3 mins. I was ready to stop when the clock ticked over, but not out of breath and it wasn't "hard", just my legs got tired. Will have to do more jogging now - can't walk much faster and too scared to increase the incline too much in case I stir up my achilles. I might actually download the couch to 5k thingy - I did it once before but gave up before finishing.. I would love to be able to run 5km. Or even 1km haha. I walk at 6kph (4 mph) and jogged at 8kph (5mph) so pretty slow but wanted to start off slow.

Awesome stuff Gen good for you! It's important to start off slow and build your way up - nobody can be expected to run long and fast straight off the bat!

I remember a couple of years ago when I first tried jogging on a treadmill I could only manage about 1 minute at a time. I eventually got up to jogging for an hour and that was an awesome feeling. Then when I started jogging outdoors I felt like I was starting from scratch again, it was so much harder! But once again, I've built up slowly and I'm very proud to say that I jogged 8km tonight!! It took me 65 minutes so not only is it further than I've done before (excluding the one off when I did the half marathon last year) I've also improved my speed because I had been doing 7km in about an hour.

Looking forward to making it up to 10km!


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Wow - 8km? That seems quick since you restarted, good stuff! I can't imagine ever doing that much!

Gen - Wow!!! Size 10! What did that feel like? Hopefully you get your reflux situation sorted out soon. The scope down your throat does not sound pleaseant but hopefully you'll get some answers.

Julia - I can't believe your ex... what is thinking? That is just plain rude. Here's hoping he finds something this weekend!

Von - how are you going?

This week has been tiring. I went to PT both sessions this week and the trainer has upped the level of intensity. I am just glad he forgot to give us push ups last night LOL. I love the new boxing routines he is giving us though, it is a good workout and makes the time fly by.

Monday is looming though. I am keeping positive thoughts. I just can't wait to find out what is happening with Liam and custody. Last night we had a dreadful night. He was up wheezing, like clockwork in Feb and Sept, he gets croup. He is at his dad's tonight... I just hope he is okay, I have asked that he ring me in the morning to let me know how he is. It is pretty scary and always starts when you are asleep. I hope his dad wakes if he is croupy again. I have drilled Liam in what to do in case of an emergency though... I hope he doesnt have to resort to that though.

Years ago, I passed out after cutting my hand, I faint at the sight of blood and intense pain. Liam was only 4 and he rang my parents and as my mum was talking Liam through things, I came round. My dad was here within minutes. He is a pretty mature 6, almost 7 year old. Something positive out of being an only child in a single parent family.

I am thinking of doing a challenge walk in March. If the weather is pleasant on Sunday - it may rain, I am going to go off and do a trial around the track.I will check out the times from last year and see if my time will be embarassing LOL Have a great weekend!

Gen - Wow!!! Size 10! What did that feel like? Hopefully you get your reflux situation sorted out soon. The scope down your throat does not sound pleaseant but hopefully you'll get some answers.

Julia - I can't believe your ex... what is thinking? That is just plain rude. Here's hoping he finds something this weekend!

Von - how are you going?

This week has been tiring. I went to PT both sessions this week and the trainer has upped the level of intensity. I am just glad he forgot to give us push ups last night LOL. I love the new boxing routines he is giving us though, it is a good workout and makes the time fly by.

Monday is looming though. I am keeping positive thoughts. I just can't wait to find out what is happening with Liam and custody. Last night we had a dreadful night. He was up wheezing, like clockwork in Feb and Sept, he gets croup. He is at his dad's tonight... I just hope he is okay, I have asked that he ring me in the morning to let me know how he is. It is pretty scary and always starts when you are asleep. I hope his dad wakes if he is croupy again. I have drilled Liam in what to do in case of an emergency though... I hope he doesnt have to resort to that though.

Years ago, I passed out after cutting my hand, I faint at the sight of blood and intense pain. Liam was only 4 and he rang my parents and as my mum was talking Liam through things, I came round. My dad was here within minutes. He is a pretty mature 6, almost 7 year old. Something positive out of being an only child in a single parent family.

I am thinking of doing a challenge walk in March. If the weather is pleasant on Sunday - it may rain, I am going to go off and do a trial around the track.I will check out the times from last year and see if my time will be embarassing LOL Have a great weekend!

* tiptoes in wearing a wig and dark sunglasses, looks around - phew! nobody recognised me. Has a look around and wonders 'should I stay or sneak back out' *.

I've spent the last hour reading through your posts and feeling very guilty about my disappearing act. I don't even know what happened - except that I gave up on myself for a while there… for quite a while, I guess.

Does it surprise anyone that I have put on a fair bit of the weight I had lost?

Gen I am in awe of where you are at and I am really proud of your determination. Vonni you sound like you have lost a fair bit too, and Julia… an eight mile run? How far behind you all am I?

But I'm here, and for the last four weeks have been back to counting calories and trying to lose weight again. I'm being the usual boring Ani - slow and steady, but this time I want to learn what made me do so well and then stuff it all up.

Four weeks ago I weighed in at 91.6kg and at the moment I am 88.9kg, so I guess that's good progress. It's just so hard to get my head around the fact that I did this once already - and then I stuffed it up.

But I am determined to try. I don't like how I feel, or how I'm back in my 'fat clothes' - and when I saw a photo of me a few weeks ago I definitely did not like how I looked.

My first goal is to lose the first ten pounds (I'm weighing myself in pounds because the numbers drop more quickly :D). I go to Bali again four weeks from now and I really want that first ten pounds to be gone by the time I get on that plane.

I will try, I promise, to not run away again!

I'm very mad at you.

I'm not surprised. But do you want to tell me why, give me a serve?

You left us :(

SAME. But welcome back Ani. We've missed you.

And don't ever do that again lol

Gen I didn't leave YOU! And while I know I let you down by disappearing, I let myself down a hundred times more - and I am sorry :(

I just caught up with a friend and her new girlfriend. We had lunch (they had Hungry Jacks and I had Subway) but how does this work? One of the women had gastric banding in November last year and she has only lost 0.5kg.

a) She's eating Hungry Jacks - the band can't choose what you put in it
b) Some people don't get any restriction from the operation until the swelling goes down when the surgeon does a few fills to get the right amount in there
c) The band pretty much sucks - it makes you chuck up half the time if you eat decent food, so people learn to eat around it with foods that mush up and slide down (like fast food, icecream etc).

One thing I have realized is you can "not lose" or "not lose much" or even "regain" with any weight loss surgery. You are still the one who has to plan your meals and go to the gym.

Gen I asked her if she had counselling before the procedure - she said no. Then I asked her why she had it done, and she said it was because her partner no longer found her attractive.

My housemate is getting it done. He weighs 140kg, has an enlarged fatty liver, enlarged pancreas, elevated blood sugar and high blood pressure. And he eats takeaway at least twice a day.

How do you manage on so few calories?

It's my weigh in tomorrow, and I am hoping for a loss - or at least to not put any weight on! I am off to work shortly so at least I won't have to worry about exercise today…

G'morning folks.
Had quite a few busy days and emotional days. One thing I did NOT do was emotional eat. But the worst thing prob was NOT eat. grrrrr kicking myself. I would have liked to lose a little more eight before my man comes back in two weeks time so i am going to work out and walk and eat PROPERLY. may only be a few hundred grams go away but its a start.

Oh and I do fine on my calories - 3 (small) meals and 2 snacks a day, focusing on protein. I couldn't fit in more unless I waited and had intermittent snacks. I'll sometimes have a bit more if I'm going to the gym a lot.

Hmmm… lost the grand total of 0.2kg this week.

I suspect I might be retaining a little bit of fluid, but I need to do a little bit better than that.

A loss is a loss.

So - what happened to you? Where you been?

Hi perthchick! Is it Ani? I am Vanessa. Glad you came back. A loss is a loss. Last week I lost 300g. As long as you keep losing. No loss is too small.

I also have not turned to food this weekend. Today was hard, very emotional and nothing feeling totally resolved, we have decided on some decisions about parenting time, but I will not agree to Liam having a passport. I did offer a compromise but my ex did not want to agree on it. As that issue is not resolved he doesnt want to agree to anything, even though we spent 3.5 hours discussing those issues and made compromises. I am going to let him consider this agreement decided on today, and in a week's time have them drawn up as a parenting plan for consent orders. If he doesnt sign. We go back to the drawing board... we started this journey in Sept 2010. It has taken 5 months to get to this stage. I was hoping to have resolution today but if I don't it is only going to stuff him around more. I currently have 100% custody and have been acting on goodwill and good faith and giving him frequent access. I continue to have good will and hope he signs.

I weigh in half hour, I am feeling a loss there too. I wonder how if I will get 1kg this week. Any loss is good but I have tracked and exercised and stuck it out with lots of temptations. Please reward me with a loss. My home scales are still up and down inaccurate, they are a guide but are out. As they are electronic I can't adjust them. Have to save and get some new ones.

I am sooooooo happy! I have lost 1.3kg!! I need to lose 1.1kg next week and I have reached my 5% off goal! I am sooo focused on my self improvement this year and I feel great.

I wanted to make Valentines Day a bit special for Liam and myself and after WW suggested we go to Baskin Robbins and have an ice cream. I had looked up Cold Rock Ice Creamy and there tiramisu and tia maria ice creams were 17 points, and budgeted for it. When I walked in, Baskin Robbins has soooo many flavours to choose from and when I asked the lady for the nutritional information she suggested I try the caramel low fat ice cream I did and had one scoop. I came home and looked up on the WW e tools and it was 2 points!!!!! I am thinking I can have ice cream out more often! LOL... My problem now is of course I have 21 points left at nearly 8pm! Ummmmm - not going to get them all in tonight... hope I still get to my short term goal next week!!!

Ani you're back!! YAYAYAYAYYYY!! I've missed you :hug: don't you bloody go disappearing on us again woman! :nono: I won't give you too much of a bollocking, am just really glad to have you back and pleased to see you making good progress again :D

Well done Vanessa on such a massive loss that's awesome!

I had boot camp tonight and it was the first night of the real thing. Oh my goodness it was SO HARD!! He had us doing all sorts of horrible exercises and damn it hurt! All good though - what doesn't kill me will make me fitter!

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Hi Vanessa - yes I'm Ani. As you've probably gathered I disappeared for a while but I am back now and full of resolve.

Julia!!! You can give me a bollocking - I deserve it.

Just got home from working 1-9pm and happy to report I have finished the day below 1500 calories. I just need to finish this bottle of water and I will have reached THAT goal too.

The air-conditioning doesn't work very well at Bunnings so I am drenched in sweat after working my bum off all evening. Ah Happy Days :dizzy:

Some good news. The book I co-wrote, which went on sale last May, sold out in four months. The publisher reprinted it and it found its way into book stores last week.

In Australian terms that doesn't mean I will be able to give up my day job, but it certainly funds my holidays and a few random things I otherwise couldn't afford! I am 3/4 of the way through my next book, so that's a little bit exciting too.

I am off to Bali again in just under four weeks. Hopefully this time my travelling companions will be a little more fun to be with, and will spend a little less time whinging, speaking down to the Balinese, and drinking buckets of alcohol.

That's awesome Ani!

Julia, bootcamp sounds hard but great!!

I hit the gym for 1.5hrs tonight - an hr on the treadmill and 1/2 on the bike. I jogged for 5 minute intervals tonight! I know it sounds pathetic, but that's a long time for me to run! The first time I just didn't look at the time and ran as long as I felt like, looked down and it was 5 mins so then I made that my interval. I actually felt pretty good jogging (8kph), albeit slowly, but I get beetroot face something terrible!

Gen 5 minutes is not pathetic, it's awesome!! Don't sell yourself short mate, you're doing reallly well.

Ani congrats on your book that's really great news :D Can I ask what the title is or would you prefer to remain anon? And as for giving you a bollocking, I won't do that. I'm just glad you're back, that's the important thing :D

I did my hill walk tonight and knocked another 2 minutes off the time to get to the top. First time I did it it took 55 mins and tonight it took 43! :carrot:

It'll be a rest day for me tomorrow as I'm working all day and then working in the evening too.

Hope you're all doing well!


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Wow Ani! That's fantastic about the book - what type of book is it?

I'm devastated tonight!!!! I will not turn to food!!! Quick run down - My son has emotional and social issues. I included ex in paedritician appointment today. He came said everything to undermine what I had to say and turned it around to his partner. Together they authored an email and sent it to me.

I feel defeated, I try to include him and I get this treatment plus a threat tonight that he should come over and knock some sense into me with a baseball bat. He hang up after that statement and I ran back to speak to his new wife, I spoke about how we need to work together to help our son and then slipped in did you hear what ex said to me, she turned it around and said..." no vanessa he said Liam should get a baseball bat and knock some sense into you."

I rang the police but feel dammed they will arrest him for intimidation. He wont sign papers. I include him in decisions and he still wants to control me. Doesnt like that he cant have the only say about Liam.

I will phone tomorrow for some support when I sleep on it. I feel so over whelmed!
Vanessa

big hugs Vanessa xoxox

Vanessa I'm obviously not familiar with your circumstances but do you have anyone to talk to, or get support from? I don't think it's reasonable to expect you to go through this without some legal/emotional support.

I had another good day yesterday. I ate 1520 calories, drank 2.4L of water and according to my pedometer I walked 8.7km while at work.

It's going to be hideous at work again today. Anyone who has ever worked in retail will understand this: we are stocktaking, it's almost a full moon, and it's 37ºC and humid here.

But I will stick to my goals because I am determined to lose something on the scales this week!

Ugh I hate the heat - it has been bloody freezing here this winter and I am going through gas heat like noone's business (not to mention the hot water bottle in my bed every night - love it!) but it's so much better than the heat!!

I do have to go to Orlando, Florida in a couple of weeks - looks like it's been 75-80 deg every day there which sounds better than the 20's here!

Didn't really feel like it but I went to the gym tonight to watch Biggest Loser - 35 mins treadmill (mostly only walking) and 40 mins elliptical. My hips have been getting sore if I pound the treadmill too many days in a row - added in stationary bike last night for a change. I do think I need to add in some weights - just hate it because I can't watch the TV while I'm on the machines!

Ate 1150 cals today - but have to eat stuff I can mush around without chewing due to my fangs! Over a little from usual but given that I have been working out I guess it's ok.

I have had legal advice. It costs and the only way I can continue paying now is if I sell the house I have been paying off for 5 years. My house is the only security I have. I am continually praying he signs the paperwork. When he does this, I will then pursue the intimadation and harassment. I have my family, but my parents are retired and I can't ask them for money. They give me all the support I need. I have just decided to ignore ex in the short term and try not to let him get to me.

On a happier note, Liam suggested a boyfriend for me... whilst driving home tonight he states rather pleased with himself, Mum you should date Jon BonJovi, he is a good singer and is hunky. LOL I replied, Yeah he is hunky, but I think he is married. What made him say that? LOL

I went to PT last night and stayed on plan. I want my short term goal this Monday...here's hoping I lose 1.1kg this week.

Yesterday was putrid at work. It was 39ºC when I got there at 1pm and the humidity was oppressive. Hopefully today will be better.

I stuck to my goals, and ate around 1600 calories, and drank more than 4 litres of water.

I am about to write ANOTHER letter to the council, because the workmen across the road have started their machines at 6.40am. Great way to wake up after a really hot night and barely any sleep.

Ugh Ani that sounds dreadful! Thinking of that makes me very happy to have a job sitting in an air conditioned office :D

Vanessa I'm sorry to hear that you're going through such a rough time :( bloody men suck sometimes don't they!! Good on you for staying on plan though - you're doing well at the stuff you can control :hug:

As for me, I had a "rest day" yesterday because I worked 2 shifts back to back - normal job in the day and then 4 hours at Nitro Circus which was awesome. Those guys are nuts!

Back into it today and going for a hill walk with a friend after work. I've decided to start following weight watchers again so that's my plan for the weekend - get all the books out and do some planning and shopping.


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I got to 80.2 on Monday, so close to the 70s! Then I went to 80.4 Tuesday, and 80.7 today! I have been to the gym every night and done cardio for 1-1.5hrs! Bloody scales. It does happen to me sometimes that I stay around the same then drop a bit, but I want under 79.9, dammit!!!