Hi all,
Gosh it is tues. already.
Aw Pam. It's always something isn't it?. You girl will work through it. Money problems suck. But putting your head in teh grocery bag will only add to your bad feelings

Sue. You are so right that that darn food doesn't even taste as good. Yet I go back agin and again.

Deb great job on the wedding!!! Support is a major componant to success!
Melody how is your life going?

Dana, Terri???

Hi all, Sue if you post that pic, you've got more guts than I will ever have. I don't even like to take pics with all my clothes on. But onward and downward. Could be a great motivator. LOLOL

Pam I feel your stress. And wish I had the magic words to help you through. But know I'm keeping you in my thoughts.

As for me well I'm OP so far, but it's going to be more of an adjustment than I thought. I think I'm going through some kind of carb withdrawal. I feel like crap. And I'm PMSing at the same time. Poor BF is trying to deal with me and all I can do is complain. Right now I'm taking it hour to hour. I'm not even sure I can think day to day yet. keeping my toes crossed for us all.
Deb:dizzy:

Well My Darlins......
The knot in my stomach is at an end. I knew God was trying to tell me something. He was. So at 2:30 am I went and sat in the shower to not only clean me but as kind of a ritual cleansing. To clean away the fear. Make no mistake that is what it was. I have worked so hard to get us financially sound after the great hardships of the past years. I did it and then all heck broke loose all at once. I sat down and identified the emotion. Took it all in and looked to the root of my emotion....it was fear. Fear that those bad days would be back. Bill collectors on the phone, at my door, phone cut off , no electricity, no money to take care of it all. And I lived in that for four years everyday, sweating blood and my health spiraled down so that was a fear too. Then bancruptcy on top of it all. Seven years to repair the damage brought by terrible illness. Here I was with a hole that was getting bigger all the time. Hubby could not find a part time job.....oh my. Huge bills all at once and I was so overwhelmed. I tried to be calm. I worked and reworked my finances trying to find a balance of some kind yet no matter how creative I couldn't make $100.00 stretch into $400.00 and no relief in sight. The hole had all the promise of a black hole looming in front of me....... and then........ while posting last night God did try and get my attention .....and succeeded. I got it so the ritual shower and there I said God I cast this into your care. The song.... Lean on me when your not strong, resonating in my ears. I can find no way out of the disaster that looms in front of me and fear has invaded my heart and spirit... we can't do it alone. Thank you for being ever faithful.
I called my hubby today and told him to keep the grocery bill as close tothe minimal amount I had allowed and he said well I didn't get to the bank today..... I immediately thought ..... I have to have staples , what am I going to do when he interjected.... I didn't have the time at lunch because I found a part time job that pays $7.50 an hour. Now I know that's not a great deal but it will be enough to put us back on an even keel. The relief flooded through me. I stopped and Thanked God with all my heart. Now believe it or not I am not the most religious human in the world but I have always known there was a God. I could feel the presence, sense it in a million ways. I was new age for years. My truth is in many philosophies but in the area where they all agree and can be proven to work in life so I am not preaching just sharing my great sigh of relief with those I love and letting you know I have learned much about stress and will spend the next few days processing so perhaps I can now achieve a much greater understanding. I hope........LOL I don't want to do this again either!!!!!!!
Pam

Oh Pam I am so happy for you! Now If only that would happen here. I too am struguling with huge financial bills with no relief in site. I am trying to find out how to make 8 in to 800so i can keep living in my house. I really do not like who i am when i am working. i change totally and can not be nice tomy family. so that is my delema. so I may end up partime soon. I need to pay the bills.

I have found that if you lay your problems to God and "lean on him" it really works. I found that something always happens the last minute!! I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers.

for me Pat the frenchfries called me i have a strong weakness where they are especially when i have to make them for the family. so i did have FF today other than that I was good.

Hi all,
It is weds.
At this point my focus is getting teh eating part back on tract. Did ok except for an ice cream cone and not enough water. Realized that I have to get back to basics again. Then I will incorprate the exercise.
Class was OK
house hunting is improving as we have finally stumbled into a realator that will help us

Pam I am so glad there is some light in your world.
Sue Iam sorry that you are still waiting
Deb PMS sucks
Terri, dana and melody how are you?

Hey gals. Man will some one tell me how to get rid of this headache. I'm hoping this is all going to pass soon. :(

Pam I'm so happy for you!!! And I'll be keeping you in my prayers. Sue you will be there too. Pat you just hang in there baby!:cool:

Me and BF had a big falling out last nite and can't even tell you what started the whole thing. He's also out of work. So Pam I know where your coming from. My check is enough for the bills, but it's thin. I feel bad, he's bored and on edge. If I get through induction it will be a small wonder. This really sucks!:?:
Deb

Financially......... If you need help......
I am going to share with you something that turned our financial lives around in a big way. Jessie Duplantis a preacher on telly.... and makes me laugh alot (a cajun you know) made a statement that changed my world. He said God will not be challenged and will only be tested by us financially. Financially we have authority to change him and prove him faithful. Well kids that got my attention in a big way. To prove he is loving and faithful to us and finances!!!!!! Jessie said God had promised us abundance, repeately. I knew that but proof? Now at this point I have to tell you an odd thing happened. There is a method to achieve this. I have no memory of what the steps were. It is most unusual for this to happen to me. I vaguely remember ther was a prayer or shall I say a proper request of God a scripture to read out loud and by using the scripture and the right words to hold him to his promise, he proves most ably that his words are fact. Our lives have been so totally changed. He has a web site and I am sure if you ask for this by e-mail they will be happy to tell you exactly what to do but don't be surprised id you forget later what it was.
It seems that is making sure we have let it go into his hands. I really can't say I believed it fully but I figured it was worth a try and life had been so hard I was willing to try anything that really may work. You still have to take action but the way is made so extremely easier. What you need appears out of the blue , no matter what challenges face you. This is a true and factual statement. As you have seen here on this board when I forget to lean in the right way , something always reminds me.
Pam

By the way learning to trust was a major, major issue with me so I gained more than you can ever imagine.
Pam

thanks pam i will ook into it

Deb time it will suddenly be gone how many day have you had this headace?? it should be about t2 right now?? it usually last about 4 days then voila it is gone and you will suddenly just realise it is gone for the first few day you feel like crab and that is the same reason for the headach your boyis protesting your use of a different fuel than your body want. now it has to work to burn the energy, where the carbs it needs to do so little owrk. see even the body is lazy!! LOL but hang in there take a bunch of ibuprophen round the clock if youneed to. maybe some excedrine it has caffiene and that may help but i found it did not domuch

Pat am glad you found one that you like!!! that makes life somuch easier!!! good luck.

I did good till late today i went to a picnic and did not get a chance to eat before hadn so i went very hungry so i did eat 2 buns and small piece of cake, exercise tpday YES!!!

Weighed in today and my weight has remained the same. 298lbs.
I am totally happy with this as my scale showed me my weight this whole week has bounced around quite a bit. Meds have taken the expected effects , but not to woory the weight loss is just being secretive right now and will jump out to delight me soon. I still have two weeks of meds. So , onward and downward I go.
Pam

DEB DEB??? DEB??!?? Hope you are still with us. things get soo much easier after this first week. and you are on the up swing. PLEASE HOLD ON!!!!

as for me i did a killer upper body today, then rode bike for about 10 miles!! way too good!!! diet wise: right OP, as planned.

I am so psyched!!! I am ready to take onthe world. Like you pam I know the fat will just start falling off. I am ready and willing for it to go. you know the song I feel good do do do do I feel good!! well I doo!!! I am going for another bike ride tonight with the kids so it will be a small one, just a few miles.

Pam I have left things in his hands and hope that he gives me a hand. I feel that things are changing soon.

DD tried out for cheer leading and got on the team WHOOO HOOOO some thing I always wanted to do but felt i was too fat to do!~!! I am so proud of her.

sons got new bike helmets so they can ride like the wind with me!!!

DH is on vacation for a week. OPS i was talking about good stuff!! :lol: :lol: well that means some free cals to be burned this week!! :D :o

Melody how is sis? and how is BF's hand?? you do know that being with problems that may be causing him to be edgy. how are you doing personally?? are you doing better? Have you started BFL yet?? I took my picts but have not had them developed yet I am afraid to as i will get depressed. and loose my motivatyion

Dana where are you???? this is comming up on 25 years!! I want you to get back OP with us. you will find your motivation with us!!! and you will contribute your energy when you have it. we all have leaned on eachother now it is time for you to lean on us!!!

Pat i hope that you find your dream house this weekend. things are looking good!!! good weekend and good weather!!!

Terri????

BOO are you there???