Good morning all!!

Well it is Day 3 for me. I have been OP food wise. Water has been good worked out for 45 mins on Tues. DH is sick and has had me up 2 nights in a row. So I keep pushing the snooze alarm. UGH.

I came to the conclusion that alot of my problem has been a loss of desire.
Desire to meet my goal, of my goal and all that goes with it. Because if you don't desire it, you don't commit to it fully and thus don't make the choices each day to make iy happen.

So to declare myself

I desire to be a size 12!

I commit to eating lo carb, drinking my water and moving my body.

I need to desire this more than the few seconds I think I get from eating something off plan.

Hey Deb welcome. I get so much support from these great ladies. Alot of help info and insight too.

Dana, O am so sorry about the purse. How did your meeting go?

Pam, How are you? Thanks for yout kind words

Melody how is your world?

Dana?????

Terri?????

Hi girls day 3 for me here too!!!

Deb how are you doing??? this is the tough time when the cravings seem to hit the hardest. just hold on one more day and it will get better. have you any headaches?? that is common while your body is adjusting. take ibuprofen and just know that you will be feeling 200% in just a few days!!! hang in there !!!! PLEASE!!!! hold your hands out and think of that food in one hand and your pride in the other. the satisfaction of eating that food will last only about 20 min if that, and then you will feel absolutly junky, but in the other hand is your pride that will hurt for a few seconds as you denie your self but it sure will sour high when you finally start to peel the weight off!!!

I saw on a shirt of a young boy and i love the saying i have revised it this situation.

Junk food is temporary but pride is forever

Well Pat glad to see you here!!! hang in there wheil you get readjusted to the low carbs. I am doing the same thing. and you are right we need to take a page from Pams book she really respects her body and her desire. look at how great she has done (Yes i am talking about you pam!!) she has broken a tremendous barrier. and so will you too. we just need to regain our focus and desire. ai think we have done that we just need to get through the hard times i will work on a plan for fight ing the hard times. that will help it is those hard hours and those hard times when with others that make this hard. so we can come up with ideas for fighting tham how to battle the picnic!! and how to fight eating on the run which is so much the norm these days. what can we do to satisfy all of us in a quick

I will let you all know what i am facing right now!!!

I have not eaten all day yet (bad i know and setting myself up for failure) and my kids just walke in the house with a huge pizza and it is only 3 feet away and smells wonderful but i am thinking of my pride, and how badly i need to do this for me!! how much fatter i feel since eating pig stykle for a few weeks (total carb/grease fest) So if I can do this so can you!!!!!

GO GIRLS!!!!!!

Well the battle for good and evil is raging in Louisianna. Just knowing I'm going to start induction on Saturday has me stressed and wanting to eat everything in site. I don't know why I always want to bing just before the fast begins. But I have another delima. I completely forgot that I have a wedding to attend Saterday afternoon. ON MY FIRST DAY!!!!!! And I don't want to put this off any longer because that would seem too much like another excuse to sit and do nothing. I'm the kind that has to strike while the Iron is Hot.

So how do I manage a wedding with food and adult beverages I'm sure. And who knows whats in the mystery punch. :?: I could not eat or drink a thing but the wedding is outdoors. And it's June. So do I bring my own Water. Would that be rude. I really need a hand gals. I refuse to be out done on my first day. I don't think getting off to a bad start is a good thing.

HELLLLLLP!!!!!!:dz: :dz: :dz: :dz: :dz:
Deb

HHHMMM that is a good one! Eat good all day till the wedding. then enjoy your self. the reason i sat that is this is going to be a life change for you. you will want to find ways to eat like this for your entire life. and well it is going to be next to impossible to resist anything that early in the game. so call it the first day trial. enjoy the party, and do your normal but know that you have done good before and after, that will help ease you into it better. many do better having a few lower carb days before they jump into the woe whole heartedly. Do not see this as a stumbuling block. Life will throw you many tough tricks like this, but we need to glide through them with our pride. If we denie ourselves then we will miss it more and more all the time, but you need to take it this way you will not crave it so much.

So far today I have been good. I made tacos today and had the meat on a bed of letuce. So far today I am OP for day 3

Hello everyone, and welcome Deb.

School is now out, so I will not be checking in daily as i was before all this stuff started happening. Probably twice a week. So don't worry about me, if you do not hear from me in awhile.

Bf and I are still arguing...things are ugly. I told him I wasn't amrrying him, but I am still wearing the ring. I gave one back before, several years ago and he hawked it...this time I get to hawk it...he's not getting it back. I told him to stop drinking or I was leaving him....he stoppped and got a six pack this afternoon. I guess that tells me what I mean to him. I haven't been talking to him except to answer him when he talks to me. I am reallly tired of the crap. He quit for a year...why would he go back???? Things were so much better when he didn't drink...but he doesn't see it. I asked him laast night if he could see how we were falling apart, and he said no. How can you not see it????

Sue I am so sorry about yoour purse. That sucks. I too am ready to regain some control of my life. So how abouta bfl challenge starting next week Sue??? I am ready if you are. Let's do this once and for all. Thanks for your prayers...lil sis is doing better...I will fill you in more next time. I got to go pick up DS from karate! I hate to run, but I gotta go! Lots of love to you all!

Melody, sweet Melody...don't you know no one sees what they do not want to see. Sometimes you have to hit rock bottom first and it sounds like he is one of those people. There is nothing wrong with you it is his addiction that rules his life. You are not alone in this situtation many of us have been there or are there but you and your children have to come first. Having him there with you and your children is an example you do not want your children to have to live with. The people they will be are being formed now and their standards are set by your own. By the time they are 12 much of who they are is already set. Drug abuse of any kind and the fighting is so hard on children. With the battle you are fighting (losing weight) it is no easy on you either. We all react to stress with eating badly or we wouldn't be here. So please be kind to you and your children. You deserve so very much better. Don't be afraid to be alone . Learn to enjoy your own company. Happiness comes from within not outside of ourselves. If you can get this down pat my Darling and it took me a long time to get that in my thick head too, you will have so much more to give to a healthy relationship. God Bless you . You are in My Prayers.


Sue Bee.......... thank you for the kind words and TLC you always seem to bring to us all. I happen to think quite a lot of you too. In fact all of you ,I hope, knows how appreciated you are to me. God knows I am far from perfect but I know when I stumble it is only me I am cheating and no one else. I have cheated myself out of to much in this life I refuse to continue it so if I stumble or fall, I also have learned to catch myself and not fall victim to all the head games that have given me permission to fail yet again. It took me many years to get this .....I just don't want you all to be as dumb as I am. So.....I post a lot, say what I think and lay it all out if it helps I am grateful if not well I have tried to share my experiences. You all have helped me more than you know and I am now beginning to feel like the Foo-Foo Pam I am. Onward and downward LOL!!!!!!!

Well I hit the scale this morning. 276, god I have a whole person to lose. Sue like you I'm short. 5'3". and round at 276. God I hate that number. Thanks for the advice on the wedding tomorrow. But I still want to stay on a good eating plan if I can manage. But if I slip I know you won't hate me for it.

Melody about the BF. I know you don't know me from adam. But been there done that. It was the end of my first mairrage. And was very hard at first to leave. I was young with a small child. But in hind site, I would not have changed a thing. That which dose not kill us only makes us stronger. And you can do this!!!!

Well I've got a real busy day ahead. I'll check in tomorrow evening to let you know how day 1 goes.
TTFN:dizzy:
Deb

Hi girls i have only seconds to say hi.

I will be thiking of you deb tomorow. (and think of me i am going to be eating subs how is that for OP?? NOT but it is the only thing besides my P bars that i can have that is portable, and can be easy traveling. do not worry about the numbers concntrate on small numbers at a time!! take 10 down at a time then when you have enough under your belt then you can start looking at the bigger numbers. did you take your measurements??

well got to run. Love to all of you

melody it is good to hear from you again. i will be praying for you. BFL starting monday!! I am ready Suit in tow!!

and Pam. you are my hero!!!!

Take care and i will be back on sunday!!!

Down 1 1/2 lb. weight is 298 and that makes a total weight loss here of 40lbs and 53 1/2 from my beginning of this treck. It is not the mass weight loss I had hope for when I began but I too have set my self up to fail with unreasonable expectations.
I am going to ask you to please refer to my posting in the 100lb club concerning stress and put in your insight and inputs. It is under #157. Please help me to sort out the pitfalls of weight loss and hopefully make it just a bit easier for us all. Love to you all.
Pam

Well I'm up early on my day off. Boy I hate getting up so early during the week. Thought I'd check here before I went and looked in the fridge. Glad I did, It will keep me on the right track today.
Sue hope your trip goes well, and Pam thanks for the words on stress. This is always my worst enemy. I'll be keeping this in the back of my mind today.

Well I'm going to get started by making a good egg breakfast and going out to wash my car. That should burn a few calories. I'll check in tonight. Everyone have a great OP day.
Deb

Hi all
A new week and a new opportunity as I think I have put on a couple of ponds(not water). Ugh

Nothing new on the house hunting
I start a statistics class tonight.

Happy Monday all

I also a little strapped for time this morning. But Just wanted to say I'm hanging in there. Not an easy task. But BF is very supportive. Did ok during the wedding. Drank lots of water. And BF and I left early to go and have a low carb meal. I'll try to get back later tonight.
deb:dizzy:

On my way to the Dump.

Just stoped in to say that i did great for sunday. not bad for a carb loaded few days. they had spaghetti for dinner on sat. and cookies after,. HHMM it was good but did not taste as good as i woul dhave remembered.

I am on tract for today Tam will be taking my picts today later in my 2 piece. UGH!!! for a laugh i will post it when i get it developed. then i wipp post the monthly changes. UGH!!!

I will check in ater just had to stop in and say HI!!!

Well, Sue Bee your hero is really fumbling around for words at the moment all you have to do to understand just how bad I can get is to read the stress thread I did on the 100 Lb club. I am right in the middle of working through this thought form to some real and viable conclusion. It is long (of course) a bit muddled and a bit confused I am sure. I have to really get a handle on this.
Love is an action not words and I do want to love myself enough to get this worked out in a real and permanent way so that I do not have the tendencies to regain mass amounts of weight ever again. There is an answer I think I have part of the thought form but at the moment is an uncompleted one. Worthwhile but very indepth and time consuming. I will chew on this until I have a real understanding and resolution of some kind that works. There is always an answer to the human condition. I think I will pray for great wisedom and clarity on this matter. I am getting there... a little at a time. Well my day has been very "Stressful" indeed. I have four totally major and not normal bills to pay this month and I have to figure out how to deal with situtation in a logical and effective manner. Right now I am a little ....ok, a lot, panic stricken.
Of course I could have and sorely wanted to slam my head right into that plastic grocery bag on the microwave cart containing
all those candy bars!!!! A loaf of fresh bread and two pounds of butter. Yes I would be sick but I had to walk into the bathroom and have a stern talk with me! I got to reasoning with myself about the end results of such an action I knew I was coming out of it. I won!!!!!! Op totally and well. By the skin of my teeth. Of course Hubby bringing me yet another unexpected major bill just made it worse and then we came close to an argument. I stopped it though and said Look I am overwhelmed and a bit out of control temporarily. I am not in a good humor and bad vibes just creates worse one . It is me. Then I leaned my head in my hands and just tried to calm myself. I began to laugh and said ....
stress , yes , that's the issue and God is helping me get it. How? cope with it . eye to eye, toe to toe. Thank you God for the learning experience and the wisdom and strength to work through it effectively and in a god and healthy way.
Pam

that was supposed to be good and healthy way. Must be God is tring to get my attention. Oh Dummy... I get it! Shall we all sing ...Lean on me, when you're not strong, I'll be your Friend, I'll help you carry on.............
I can be a little dense sometimes...Love you all.
Pam