Tomorrow I have a plan to climb out of the hole that I dug myself into today. Food was horrible. I ate like I used to and frankly I don't know how I'm not 400 pounds. I'm going to journal a little and start fresh in the morning. Hopefully the scale won't hate me to bad for my TBL weigh in.

I'm about to cross to the other side, back to sanity and non-pms-beeachy-self-imposed safety exile....whew. EVERY fricken month! Thanks for the encouragement, you girls are the best! :grouphug:

I'll be back tomorrow. Today was "ok"...a party at a friend's house, LOTS of wonderful Arabic food, I had one plate and stopped, no dessert. I tried to savor every bite.

Hugs to you all.

Rhonda, book yourself a massage RIGHT NOW! DO NOT WAIT until any "magic" number on the scale! DO IT. You deserve it, value yourself and your health and relaxation NOW!

Jen, huge congrats on the job!

Anj, I hope the oatmeal is the way you like it when you re-heat. Great job on the weekly meal making.

Jaime, thinking of you this weekend-stay strong these next few days!

Heather, studying/retention vibes going your way!

Anna, more from me later but all that you blogged was amazing. Have you considered a memoir of sorts? Writing what you know & have lived through? I was moved a great deal more by what you wrote than that I have read in any published form lately. It was evocative to the point that I felt like I was right there with you in the room over on the couch in the corner as you fought through it. I imagine it is cathartic and somewhat scary to relive it through the words you choose, but I think it could also be much more. Just a thought...but a strong thought. I dreamed about you writing this book last night.

Zinke, I think you are doing a great job finding a whole new direction for yourself and your children, eventually. I enjoy your determination and purpose!

Cat, yeah, mind over platter, I WISH it was so all the time!

I'm thrilled to report that everyone kept their pants on. What bothered me most is that my husband is the butt of all the "fat" jokes. His father just won't let up, and doesn't matter that he isn't slim either, or his other son, or his wife. ALL of them are quite overweight, but they all find it "funny" to say something to my husband. I don't know how he lets it all roll off his back, but it pisses me off beyond all belief.

Girls. I suck.

BACK. ON. PLAN.

welcome back Jo!

ditto

Billie - are you out of that hole today?
Manick - so glad you are feeling sane again.
Jo - My husband's family does the same thing to him.."Little Paul isn't so little anymore...te he he." And, they are all very overweight themselves. I can't wait until they see him in a 2-3 months. Your husband will be smoking!

Today is my official weigh-in day and I'm very proud to say that I've lost for the 3rd week in a row.:carrot: Today is also my OP day #19. I'm doing well with the food component, so I'll concentrate on the exercise portion this week. Hopefully, my weekly losses will stay consistent.

Anjuli - I'm technically off today too, but guess who's working? I have two reports that I want off my plate.

Well Hello my name is Heather and I'm a binger. It's been quite a while but yet I did it. I didn't journal, I know exactly the reason why just not sure how to work through it. Either way I'm pissed off at myself today. Moving on. I'm amazingly not sore from the massage today - I was last night though.

Jo - Families suck. I don't know why they feel they have the right to discuss stuff that no one else in their right mind would bring up. Of course until he tells them to can it it's not going to change.

Manick - Glad you're back!!

Billie - Same boat with you, I find it amazing I'm not stuck on a couch somewhere. But you are better then that. Move on!

Rhonda - Congrats!!! So proud of you.

Kitty - You don't suck!!

Anj - Enjoy your day off!

Rhonda!!! :carrot::carrot::carrot::carrot::carrot: I'm so proud of you!! You are totally ROCKING!!

Lucy- Come on you can do it!!!

Billie-Today is a new day!! :hug:

Heather-It's in the past, so no worries. Today is a brand new day! :hug:

Jo-I agree with Heather. Family sucks.

I'm working today :( But I'm happy that now I know there is a light at the end of this tunnel! ;) OP day #18 today and I'm feeling great! I want to also add in a little more exercise too. But my I'm keeping my focus on the food because I know that is what gets me into trouble.

OK, it was my plan to do a long run on tread today. Now, I procrastinated and I have to leave the house in about 1 hour. Will do 5k. right. now.

Rhonda, OP 19?? rockin'super!

is everyone veggie here? I am a bit cautious about putting very omnivorous food plan in this thread.

I'm sorry. I hope you learn something from this time to help you prevent the next time.

No. I've incorporated a lot of veggie meals into our family's meal plan to help my oldest DD who is a veggie and because I do think eating less meat is healthier for us, but I do still eat meat. It's a personal choice and everyone here is respectful of that.

I'm not. I don't know if I ever could be, but everyone on this thread is very respectful of everyone's choices. I do incorporate some vegan recipes and some day may make the switch, but for right now I'm just trying to work on eating more veggies and eating healthier.

I have been a walking ball of stress eating the past 5 or so days. Every good choice is balanced out (and overshadowed) by a bad one (or two). Ugh.

I lose 150 pounds tomorrow.

i love the veggie way. no beef ,pun semi-intended, with that. just not looking to offend.
but seems like respect abounds around here- cool.

Thanks. I will write a book when the kids are older. Right now they are too young to go away for blocks of time for me to write. Yes, i could get up early and do it but I won't. Whatever I write will probably be creative nonfiction.

Ugh. that is crappy. I applaud your ability to not say anything.

:hug:

I am sorry.

Jaime, I'm sorry you're going through this, it's so tough. I wish I could give you a big hug. Lots of big hugs.

So sorry Jaime :hug:. What can I do to help?

:hug: I'm glad you had the massage. I bet it helped with the stress issues. I hope you figure it out soon.

change in the menu. found some red and yellow peppers that need to be used soon. dinner is stir fry.

Am I the only one who can't get through to Plurk? Or Google for that matter? Maybe there is an internet jam up somewhere near me or something.

I tried the Morningstar hot dogs this afternoon. I like them better than any real hot dog I've ever had. I also made a gigantic bowl of fruit salad. Apple, banana, mandarin oranges, pineapple, blueberry, blackberry, grapes, peaches and pears. YUMMY

I am back in the groove with dinner tonight. Another hot dog, roasted green beans and some brussel sprouts will probably be on the menu.

Another big hug to you Jaime. Stay strong and you know you are free to come to us if you need to talk more.

I am sorry that you are alone in your suffering. Can you do a trace route to see what happens?

Looks like it. I'm doing ok here...

Jaime, we're here for you.

Just did a 60 minute walk on the treadmill and I didn't pass out. Imagine that.

I'm sending you lots of positive vibes this morning Jaime!

Jaime, I'm sending special "vibes" your way.:hug:


Today, I need to start calorie counting and stick with the walking. My scales are stuck.

Uggghhhhh get me out of my funk. Actually I feel better this morning, we'll see how it goes.
breakfast - cereal and naner
lunch - enchiladas
snack - apple, pecans
dinner - tbd

I need to run as I have the first 5k in the winter series on Satruday but study is taking priority right now.

Jaime - hugs hugs hugs

Heather, I'm glad you feel better.

I'm nervous. I'm at the point where the scales really slow down to a crawl and I usually quit. I start thinking that something is wrong with my body and I just don't have the ability to lose like everyone else. Silly, I know. But, that's how my effed up mind works. I'm journaling and white knuckling it through. I can't afford to give up on myself this time.

Good morning.

Jamie, when I logged on to check 3fc today you were in my thoughts. Seemingly strange maybe, due to the newness of our co-posting. But there you are anyway. :). Have a good day and be a little extra kind to yourself.

Heather I am in a bit of a funk also. The snowy weather is putting a hold on my mileage and I thinkk that might have something to do with it.

Well I am glad there is no more chocolate in the house. Ask no questions... ;)

later-

Rhonda
 

Do Not Give Up.

You are worth it. You can do this!!!

I didn't workout yesterday even though I should have :rollpin:. I got in to work early this morning which is great cuz I can leave early. I wish this trend continues. Yesterday's calories were way over. It was my fault cuz my lunch was not filling even though the calories were high. So I was hungry all evening and then kept munching :mad:. Now I have to balance it out this week. I will workout today definitely. I need to get out of the 170s...been there forever it seems. TOM should be over in a day or so and my life can get back to normal.

Rhonda, please don't give up. Look how wonderful you're doing staying OP for all this time. I'm sure you feel great even though the scale is moving slow. It is bound to happen. I understand your fear and frustration. Most of us go through the same emotions. You cannot give up girl! Now now and not ever.

Jaime, :hug: I'm keeping you in my thoughts all day and I sincerely your day and weeks to come go well. I'm sending you positive vibes. I hope you got to spend some time with L peacefully last night.

Heather, how can we help to get you out of your funk? I hate it when it happens. I wish there was a way to avoid it altogether like an internal alarm thingy going off when the funkyness was approaching so we could take appropriate measures to avoid it. Well, until that happens here's a :hug:.

Lucy, I hope you get out of your funk mood too.

Food Plan:
B - Egg beater sandwich
L - Soup
S - small salad

Edit: New Prez/Vice-Prez portraits are not up yet. I'm hoping they'll change it sometime this afternoon. I'll make sure to look.

Jaime-:hug: :hug: :hug: I'm thinking of you girl.

Heather-Fight the funk! ;)

Rhonda-You are doing great, keep it up I promise you will see results!! DO NOT GIVE UP! Think positive because I'm sure if your mindset is thinking that you won't lose that really does effect your weight loss. Don't let it. You know what to do and you know if you do it, it works.


I want to know where my snow is?!?!? I'm staying home from work today anyway just in case of snow. :) Although being home is hard for me so I'm going to need extra OP vibes today if you have them.

You've recognized the pattern, now on to fixing it. I think you can have lots of good thoughts while on the treadmill ;)
I hate winter myself!! I also know that "thank god it's gone" feeling all too well ;)

They better!
On the topic of your return - I really don't know. I personally would want to have my debt paid off but I also think savings are a good thing to have right now in this market. Maybe a bit of both?

Is it snowing yet? :D

Well I made it into work and have actually gotten quite a bit done. I'm leaving early for some study time and to get some exercise in - assuming the gym is open. I'm not trying to run on ice outside. I blogged about my issues of late and while it's more just a bundle of words I think I needed to get it out there. I doubt it'll solve anything but sometimes it feels good just to say what ails you.

Well, I'm headed out to run in 30mph winds. I was hoping they would die down some but it is not happening so I might as well head out and get it done. Tomorrow morning is supposed to be below 20 here, that's pretty rare and will be the coldest weather we've had all season.

Jen, home can be harder for me too. Hang tight. OP op op op op op op op op :)


Jo, pretty cold stuff. How was the windy run?

Pinto, you can get tax credit for interest on only one mortgage. I like the idea of both pay down and extra cash for rainy day.

Waiting on carpool line for 5 year olds.

L

Actually you can on two. Your first mortgage which is good up to $1,000,000 loan and also a home equty line with interest deductible up to $100,000. 2nd mortgage just has to be secured by home. I think there are some phase out rules but you should be good to go on it.

~ I still hate taxes.

I hate taxes too and hubby deals with this sort of thing. He's better than I am at this. I'll look into the stuff you guys mentioned. Thanks :)

It's just on the Schedule A itemized deductions. Should be able to consult Publication 936 to answer any questions. It's also limited to the FMV of your home - which could create problems with the decline in home values.

Blech

Rhonda - I understand exactly where you are coming from. I was doing so well and now the last 4 out of 5 days have just been bad. I know some of it is emotional in regards to DH but I haven't pinpointed what else is going on my head. I've been listening to Jillian's podcasts and those do seem to be helping. Thankfully, I haven't turned to sweets. Maybe a few to many salty crackers with my hummus but NO sweets. I seem to be falling more into Anna's path with to much of good things. That is quite a change for me.

Snobby Joes. I don't understand the hype. They were WAY to tomatoey (I know, not a real word) and I am not sure if I feel up to salvaging them somehow. I thought about trying to turn them into some sort of soup but haven't decided yet. They are in the fridge and I will contemplate it and make a decision tomorrow.

Weather - It is about time someone gets crap weather besides Kim and I. They were calling for subzero temps last night but it was 10* when I woke up at 5:10. There were reports of -27* 80 miles south though. BRRRRRRR!

Can you spice up the Snobby Joe's with hot sauce and onions and peppers? Those would go well with something tomato-y; I've never had the Snobby Joes but always thought they sounded really good.