OK, so this week food-wise...50/50. exercise non-existent. But... I did lose 1 lb. and I will take it.
Today I get to clean out my fridge and throw out all my rotten healthy food and go buy more. Why is it I can go to the grocery, buy the best food and still pass it up when I'm wondering what to make for dinner? I know part of it is living alone and cooking for one. It's hard to do without getting sick of the same thing over and over. It's also hard to do because of my family obligations at this time.
(long story short..) My mom had gangrene show up on her toe the first week of June, also when I took a week vacation-which was no vacation after all this started. She has had 8 or 9 surgeries (lost track) and ultimately had partial foot amputation. She is now receiving oxygen tank therapy treatments that promote the healing of her foot and the growth of new tissue on her foot. This is done while she it temporarily living in a nursing home since she can not fully take care of herself at this time. Once this is over, she will have 2-3 weeks therapy to teach her how to walk, bend over, climb stairs etc. with half a foot. In the meantime, I feed her cat at her house 2x a day, get her mail, pay her bills, visit her, do her laundry on weekends and whatever else she requests. We are both depressed and want this to be over and for her to go home. Her depression turns into being mean while my depression sucks the life out of me and puts food in my mouth. Sorry, guess that wasn't so short. Anyway...
I know I should plan and prepare meals on the weekend, but darn it, I don't want to do anything on the weekend. I want to relax. As it is, I have to do all my basic 'take care of your home' stuff like laundry, cleaning. And then do the 'mom' stuff. I can't even sleep in on the weekends...ggrrr!
So, this is going to go very, very slow for me. But as long as I lose, I don't care anymore how long it takes. At least it isn't adding weight.
So anyway, YAH for me, I lost 1 lb!
