Well I fell off my wagon BIG TIME! Think pastries, toast and butter, flapjacks, cookies, chocolate, oreos, fish and chips, chocolate cake, bread and butter pudding, jam roly poly!

Ok enough food porn! Well I fell off, I actually took a concious step off for about 3 or 4 days. There were times when I felt like I could go on eating like that for ever. I liked flapjacks (but not the slimy aftertaste or feeling dreadfully thirsty after eating them) I like cookies and chocolate, but after you've had 3 then a cookie is a cookie is a cookie! I love jam roly poly and bread and butter pudding and chocolate cake, but pudding after dinner 3 days in a row????

I was starting to think if I'd go back to healthy eating... Then my parents went home (it's a regression thing this binge eating around them...) and I went back to my kickboxing class and I realised quite how ill I felt after all that junk. Yesterday morning I got out of bed feeling dizzy, I've been a moody so-and-so and having BAD sugar crashes.

After having a healthy day yesterday I got out of bed this morning feeling relatively normal (considering it was still dark outside) and happy!

So my success is, that I got back on the wagon! Even though there were times when I thought I'd never stop wanting to eat! I'm loving my healthiness! I'm feeling better than ever, even though I'm still trying to realise that junk food really is just junk!

WELL DONE!!

I think that having the ability to get BACK on the wagon after falling off is one of the BIGGEST victories of all! And (strangely) I think it's good "practice" because someday you're going to go to a wedding or some other crazy food-fest and you may want to go OP for a day or two on purpose.

EXCELLENT, 2frustrated!!!!

And I can relate. This summer, I was shanghaied into going to McDonald's by my British friends . I had a Happy Meal and a small Coke. It tasted very nice going down, but MAN did I feel lousy for the next 24 hours or so....my body just didn't know what to do with all that grease.

Well done!

LOL. I can't even imagine having that feeling after McDonalds... I haven't been in months and months, but have had spells of being a regular. I wonder what will happen when I do try again!

2Frustrated -- way to go!!!

McDonalds is like the worst ever! I stopped at eating there at least 5 year ago - as a general rule, even when I had never even THOUGHT about try to eat healthy.

The other day I was WAY over meal-time, and ravenous and witchy - which means eat now and get really dizzy. Since I was driving, I grabbed a small order of their fries.

The hot, greasy, salty taste was kind of pleasant - until about 30 seconds after swallowing. Then I had this tight pucky icky mouth feeling. Like if I could just get one corner up, I could pull out a grease mold of th eentire inside of my mouth!

YACK!

I will never do that again.

Good for you 2frustrated! A missed step here or there isn't such a big deal. But, being able to find your rhythm again and realizing the difference in how each makes you feel is a HUGE deal.

And, don't worry, you will get to the point that you remember junk food is just junk. You may still make the decision to indulge in it sometimes but you will KNOW what you are in for and be able to weigh your options. For instance, we went out to dinner to celebrate my sister's birthday last night. My plate arrived with steak, shrimp, pasta - all swimming in cream, butter, and cheese sauces. As good as it sounded when I read the menu looking at it was a whole different story. I knew right away that I would prefer to really savor a few bites than to deal with the physical aftermath of eating it all. Not to say that it still wasn't instictive to WANT to eat it all, just that I was perfectly aware of the price I would pay if I did. I knew it wasn't worth it.

jawsmom -- that is so inspiring! It really helps to hear people can get to that place!!! Allows me to even contemplate getting there myself!

2frustrated: I'm drooling just reading you post! It's okay though, we all fall off every now and then. But your ability to get right back on track shows how dedicated you are to losing weight. Don't be to hard on yourself when you do mess up...just get back up and keep on going! All those good days add up to more than one or two bad days. You've already lost so much weight so far!!! Congrats on getting back on track and for having lost so much weight already!

most of the foods you had are ok in moderation. when you have bad day get get back on the horse and ride on the healthy eating trail. glen