Hello! I am 32 years old, have been seriously changed my lifestyle, which has resulted in a 92 pound weight loss. I do have a homepage where I not only share my victory in my weight loss journal, but also, How I have managed to take possession of my body! I was molested when I was four years old repeatedly by an older cousin, he was just the first of many, but he was the only one who was a repeat offender. He used magazines to convince me to take off my clothes. He would say: "See, how pretty these girls are, and they don't have their clothes on". That moment, I made a vow to myself that I would never look like those "whores" who so choose to display themselves that way. When puberty set in, I was very depressed. I didn't want boobs, and all that hair, but I couldn't stop nature from taking it's course. What I did when I started getting unwanted compliments, and flirtations from young testosterone driven men, I began to stuff my face. I would eat until I could eat no more. It was hard to put on because I wasn't sedantary, I was very active. But I was a size 14 & 16 by the time I graduated from high school. My friends would tell me that "the guys say that if you lost weight you would be gorgeous". I would just cringe, because I didn't want to be beautiful. But there was a part of me that would want to be pretty. Well, My first round with battling with my weight and trying to decide to get healthy was when I was wearing a size 22. I had lost about 2 sizes. But then, I would get unnerved, and anxiety attacks would come when I got advances from men again. I put my weight back on and more. My highest weight was 276 pounds! I have a wonderful husband, and he compels me to be better...and I broke my vow to myself, and decided that I was not going to let Terry Finley rule my life anymore, that I was not going to be robbed of my health, that I was NOT going to let my sexuality be robbed anymore. Since that decision...I have lost 92 pounds, and I feel so good. I still have a long way to go, but I desire to reach between 120 & 125. I will know when I get there. But if you would like to see my pictorials in my weight loss journal, you can click this link:
http://www.hppd.net/monascloset/journal13.html
