Hey yall,
I know I don't get to post here often, but am always encouraged when I do. I didn't meet my goal from September to December. I wanted to lose 25 pounds. (cough) Instead, I gained four. A Lot of crap has been going on. None of them I want to use as excuses, I just didn't do it. I totalled my truck in October, and injured my right hip and left elbow. Got a knot on the top of my head as well. I have been dealing with a lot of emotional stuff too. My very special and dear Aunt, who along with her husband, provided me with some of the brightest, and best childhood memories. They were a ray of sunshine in all of my darkness. Last Christmas, she was in the hospital, and from there, she entered a nursing home. I am employed in 2 nursing homes, and every day, I see these people and don't get to see her. I went up before Christmas, and she knew me intermittantly. Broke my heart. So, I have been thinking about her a lot. I have just felt like crap about myself, have been dealing with some self esteem issues. But...I am trying like heck to get back into motion. I am on my feet all day at my job..But I need about an hour or so a day on the tread mill if I can't walk my 3 mile walk on our road. I really, really, really want to finish my goal. I have come a long way, and I am proud of myself for that. I am just ready to get there Ya know? if you want to see my weight loss journal, you can visit "The Shedding Weight Loss Journal" at:
http://www.hppd.net/monascloset/journal13.html
My home page is:
http://www.hppd.net/monascloset
Be good to yourself!

Refuge

I just had to reply to your post. Don't be too hard on yourself, sounds like you've had alot going on recently and still do. Where do you find the time to work 2 jobs? Holy cow, take a few minutes to stop and smell the roses. You have alot to be thankful for and need some time for yourself or you'll burn out. We all deal with stress differently and need to learn how to manage it. I for one, know that I couldn't do what you've been doing obviously for sometime now.....so be proud of your accommplishments. I'll get off my soapbox now.....I mean ......well, I hope you take this the right way, with kindness. You are doing the best that you can do right now. tc

Hi Refuge,

I just spend the last hour reading some of your web page. You have been through so much I was in tears reading some of the horrific things that have happened to you.

You are such a inspiration for people who have been through similar things and you are making a wonderful life for yourself and your family.

You are a amazing person.