I'm sorry but I'm about to get busted at work because I'm laughing so hard at Schatzi. I heard this cartoonish sounding drill sargent voice when I read what you typed!
RNMOM, all you can do is pick yourself up and move on. Accept the fact that you've made bad choices, and then go toward the positive light at the end of the tunnel, so to speak. I'm a SADD sufferer too, but I can tell you that this winter has been way better than the others for me because I've had such positive things to focus on. Know what my positive things are? Working out. I know it doesn't sound too positive, but you (and all the other girls) know me and how much I used to LOATHE doing anything physical. I am all about it! I'm starting to like looking at myself in the mirror now.
Do you and DH have time to work out together and motivate each other? I try to motivate Terry but once he's home from work, he doesn't want to do anything but play on the computer. I know if you have someone who will keep you motivated to work out with, that helps a lot. For instance, Sat-Mon I work out with Terry, Tuesdays I work out with Molly, Wednesday I have volleyball, and Thursday I work out with Karen.
Just try to stay positive and when you're about to give in to temptation, remember how much weight you have left to lose and keep your goals in mind!