it's only 5:45 but i'm up. DH has left for work. with our mods out cavorting I figured i'd start the thread if that's ok...
sadly the news i share is not good....
Bagel went to Rainbow Bridge last night. here's what I wrote to my newf rescue group:
Quote:
Dear Friends,
Last night at about 9:13 Bagel Henry went to Rainbow Bridge. My friend and I were with him.
he was laying in the surgery on a blanket eating chopped chicken from the tech's hands when we arrived. he looked at me, smiled, wagged his tail and staggered to his feet. They said he had been a lot calmer and nicer since daddy had come to see him earlier that day. My husband feels he just needed to say goodbye to the family. He staggered and fell walking around the small room and we let him. I sat on the floor on the blanket petting him, questioning if I was doing the right thing.
Maybe he'll get better... but i knew in my heart this was not the life I wanted for him. I wanted him to run and chase squirrels and rabbits and be pain free. I wanted him to be slim and not hurt anymore. I wanted him not to have to take pills and cry when he tried to get on the couch. I wanted his eyes to be bright and happy again, not dull and sad.
The vet gave him a sedative... but he was testy and needed to be muzzled... he let me muzzle him and the look he gave me made me laugh. As soon as the sedative was given the vet took the muzzle off of him. soon his head began to droop, he got the silliest look on his face, his breathing no longer that hard, labored, can't catch my breath from the pain breathing,slowed to a light comfortable,breath and and he went to doggy lala land which really was kind of funny as he kept looking at me like "i don't know who you are pretty lady but I like that you pet me"... he was high as a kite... he licked his nose a bit and watched me...
The vet (a small gnome of a man who really loves dogs) knelt and shaved his flank to put the line it. the pink anesthetic that stops his heart was administered and even though they say dogs do not close their eyes Bagel did. He was peaceful. I am glad I stayed with him to the very end.
we pet him a few more times and we left. i did not want the body or to have his ashes....
got home... hannah sniffed me up and down and ran and curled up in brian's lap and is now sleeping with girl child.
my arms are empty
my heart is aching
my eyes won't stop leaking.
RIP Bagel Henry DOB @2000-September 18, 2008
thank you all for your help and support. I feel like I failed him. but he's not in pain anymore....
bright blessings,
nessa
thanks to all of you for all your support and love.Dear Friends,
Last night at about 9:13 Bagel Henry went to Rainbow Bridge. My friend and I were with him.
he was laying in the surgery on a blanket eating chopped chicken from the tech's hands when we arrived. he looked at me, smiled, wagged his tail and staggered to his feet. They said he had been a lot calmer and nicer since daddy had come to see him earlier that day. My husband feels he just needed to say goodbye to the family. He staggered and fell walking around the small room and we let him. I sat on the floor on the blanket petting him, questioning if I was doing the right thing.
Maybe he'll get better... but i knew in my heart this was not the life I wanted for him. I wanted him to run and chase squirrels and rabbits and be pain free. I wanted him to be slim and not hurt anymore. I wanted him not to have to take pills and cry when he tried to get on the couch. I wanted his eyes to be bright and happy again, not dull and sad.
The vet gave him a sedative... but he was testy and needed to be muzzled... he let me muzzle him and the look he gave me made me laugh. As soon as the sedative was given the vet took the muzzle off of him. soon his head began to droop, he got the silliest look on his face, his breathing no longer that hard, labored, can't catch my breath from the pain breathing,slowed to a light comfortable,breath and and he went to doggy lala land which really was kind of funny as he kept looking at me like "i don't know who you are pretty lady but I like that you pet me"... he was high as a kite... he licked his nose a bit and watched me...
The vet (a small gnome of a man who really loves dogs) knelt and shaved his flank to put the line it. the pink anesthetic that stops his heart was administered and even though they say dogs do not close their eyes Bagel did. He was peaceful. I am glad I stayed with him to the very end.
we pet him a few more times and we left. i did not want the body or to have his ashes....
got home... hannah sniffed me up and down and ran and curled up in brian's lap and is now sleeping with girl child.
my arms are empty
my heart is aching
my eyes won't stop leaking.
RIP Bagel Henry DOB @2000-September 18, 2008
thank you all for your help and support. I feel like I failed him. but he's not in pain anymore....
bright blessings,
nessa
no my food was not good last night... but i'm back on track now.
more later.
now my eyes are leaking too. What I didn't say before is that when our baby couldn't walk the vet kept saying she would get better. We waited 4 months and it was way too long for everyone. This is how it should have been. Peace to you and to Bagel.
. If she's willing (that's a BIG if!!), I think it'd be fun. Then off with the hubby for a meeting and a run then lunch, then to work this afternoon. Hopefully it will be a calm day!!
