I have decided to throw the scale away for February...not quite sure how this is going to work for me, but I thought I'd give it a shot. I've noticed a pattern with my body...with whatever diet I do (WW twice, for example) I get to the 10 pounds lost stage like I did earlier this month, and then I kind of plateau there and even start gaining back. Well, instead then of just sticking it out, I get all depressed, tell myself what the use in trying is...blah blah blah. Well, not this time...I already hit my 10 lb plateau and had gained back. Sometimes my scale was reading as much as 5 lbs! I checked yesterday and I was back down to 1.5 lbs over that 10 lb mark...but for February I'm not going to even look at the scale at all...besides I'm going to be too busy packing for the big move (that's if they approve us...we find out tomarrow)
I'm going to stick Sonoma as best as I can. I really feel it has become my lifestyle finally. I really feel out-of-my-skin so to speak if there's nothing Sonomish around. In fact, yesterday was dh's 30th birthday. We went to the casino for breakfast brunch. They always have shrimp, plus they had crab legs left from Friday. Here's what I ate. I immediately attacked the shrimp and crab, but was still probably the proper protien size since once you remove the shells there's not much crab meat there. I then had a salad with all my veggies on it, some blue cheese, some parmesian cheese, and italian dressing (the dressing probably didn't meet all sonoma guidelines, but it's better than the creamy dressings that they also offered) I also had some chinese vegetable stir-fry. For desert? Strawberries dipped in dark chocolate. YUMMY! Oh, I did have one indulgence...a cheese blintz with strawberry syrup. It was small and satisfied my desire. I never did feel deprived, and never complained once that "oh I can't have that...

" DH on the other hand....TWO slabs of prime rib! I almost asked for a bite but didn't...the thought of all that fat kind of disgusted me!
Now, last night was a different story. We went over to a friends house who made cheeseburgers and hot dogs and mac n' cheese and baked beans from the can. With white buns, of course. I had a little of each, and went back from more mac n' cheese and baked beans. At least the baked beans had some fiber, but they are also loaded with sugar! Oh, lest I forget...a big honkin' piece of chocolate cake with chocolate frosting!

Oh, well!
So, like I said...no scale, no "goals" but maybe to have my pants start fitting me loosely! Oh, and not to fall into the fast food habit while working my a$$ off this month cleaning and packing! Trying to look positive about tomarrow...but I'm still a bundle of nerves

We need OUT of that house!!! I think though that I still may weigh in on the 14th just to make sure that I am still 10 lbs down to meet that goal for my tracker. Then, not again until March 1st! How about this...not until after we move into the new apartment! It will represent victory on so many levels