What about switching to fat free, sugar free hot chocolate--only 30 calories a cup. Or lately I've been drinking Numi brand red chai tea or Celestial Seasonings' Madagascar Red Vanilla tea. Both are very tasty with a little FF milk and sweet-n-low (or even with a tsp of sugar would be lower in calories than your hot chocolate).
You've been doing great! 42 pounds lost is a real achievement and not easy to do. It's been all I could do to lose 35 pounds. I can't call you fat because I'm sure you must look great. You come so far and have such a short ways to go to get to your goal; anyone who's accomplished what you've done can get the rest of the way there.
When I went off my diet for a while and was having trouble getting back on plan, it helped me to have someone to be accountable to for what I was eating. In my case, it was my personal trainer, but it could be anyone--a friend, your partner/spouse, in one of the forums here. You could arrange to report what you eating to them until you feel like you have things back under control. My trainer was not critical, but just knowing that I was going to have to report what I ate to him was enough to motivate to get back on plan. It only took a couple of days until I felt like I was in control enough that I didn't need to report anymore.
- Barbara