ok girls.. I’m gonna need a WORLD of will power tomorrow. From October 2005 until March of this year I worked for FEMA helping the people from hurricane’s Katrina and Rita. Before that i was helping Katrina evacuees at the Reliant astrodome shelters working for Red Cross. I have to say that during those times is when I gained a whole bunch of weight. The emotional and physical stresses of the job, and then all my co-workers ordering food ALL the time.. all that combined made me into a big ole mess. Anyway that job ended in March when the Disaster Recovery Center I was working at in Houston closed down. Well now some of my co-worker friends of mine have invited me out with them tomorrow. My FEMA supervisor is leaving this week back to Washington from where he is from, I haven’t seen them since March so I’m excited to go. BUT I’m soooo worried that this will trigger a binge. I love them but they remind me a whole lot of how badly we ate and how many food binges they triggered (unknowingly) on me. The last time I met up with these same people, we went to Bennigan’s and at the suggestion of one of them I got the Monte Carlo sandwich..OH MY GOD, that thing was unbelievably huge and fattening. then we ordered two desserts and shared them. Today is my 12th day binge free so I’m soooo worried that it’ll get ruined tomorrow. any advice, any any?? wish me luck please I’m gonna need it
here are some pics of me during my time at FEMA.. i have loads but this kinda shows how my weigh fluncuated:
this is me at the start of my job:
middle (i‘m the one at the far right end with the hand on my hip lol):
around christmas time I was the one that organized all the food for our party:
typical me right here, holding food in my had. this is when i started getting really fat
here are me in some of my “skinnier days” although I used to be even smaller than that: