Its all about you and how you feel about yourself. When you dont like yourself you cant treat others any better.
It not only hurts them but you in the long run.
Until you are able to see that you are a loving valuable person who desearves to be loved not only by others but yourself you will keep falling into the never ending cycles.
Yes the sodas are a evil that need to be given up. I wouldnt even consider Diet ones. The way I was able to give up the sodas was to ween myself off of them by replacing them with something else as well as drinking as much water as I could. They are like a drug. I have been soda free for probably three years now. And I will never again put one to my mouth.
The best way to stay awake and alert is to exersise. This can rev you up and get you going. After your workouts you will feel great.
Make changes and talk to yourself and remind yourself that you need to do this for you. Let your love ones know you love them with all your heart and you need to love yourself more as well. But let them know what your going thru so they understand that you are trying.
Dont try to change yourself in a day or a week it takes time and it can happen. Go for a walk and think about what changes you need to make in your life. Think about what you need to do to achieve the things you need to do to better your life. This is a very hard and trying time in your life, but its certainly one you can achieve when its something you want. No more excuses no more losing control its time to help yourself because you are the one who can make or brake you ..
I hope you can see that your worth every bit of effort it takes to make this happen. Dig deep down and grab on to that part of yourself that you let go and bring her back !!!