so ok, i was so good over the summer, lost ten pounds blah blah blah - school started and I continued to do well. But now almost done with my film im like a binge eater. Now its not so much that i am overeating (all the time) but I am making some bad bad bad bad bad choices. Almost every meal I am like - ok now i have to eat something fatty or I won't feel satisfied - or I have to keep eating because I decide I need to feel more full.
(side note - i kind of wonder if this is me just getting into old habits because by making this film you really have to defend yourself and your product every day (and basically you are exposing yourself, to critique to questions to everything (like standing naked in front of your co-workers or something cliche like that)) and maybe its my way of protecting myself??? and its the least time consuming way to comfort myself???)
And I have not been consistant at the gym. at all. and then when I go its like an hour and a half to two hour stretch. Ok and then I feel fat when I stop and have time to think (which isn't always
) and how the rolls are not where they used to be - its true fat is starting to distribute a little differently in my mid twenties - AHHHH.
ok so how do I get healthy again - I should be a bit calmer now that my three principle photography weekends are over and be able to excersize more consitantly (till thanksgiving day). I am going way for almost a month to Japan and Thailand and I want to be healthy again. Need to stop. Need to do the carrot dance
on a side note - has anyone ever tried "detoxing" or whole fruit/veggie fasts etc.
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fat and busy and bad
But we keep getting back on, right?
and such... disgusting, and all it produces was a really really bad day and a half (yes, I could have given it more time... 
). I was crabby and had a constant headache, so it was NOT worth it.