Hi. I'm Jennelle. I used to come here often, but then some eating disorder issues got in my way and I decided that I just needed to be fat for a while. It was either that or kill myself through my disordered behavior. I can't remember the last time I posted, or even lurked.
But I've decided to come back. Here's why: I'm ready to lose this weight, for real this time. After doing some soul-searching, I realize that it's *my* fault my metabolism is screwed up. (Of course, the reasons behind the behavior that led to my messed-up thinking *are* legitimate, but that's neither here nor there.) Because my metabolism is so goofy, I realize that I must be absolutely anal-retentive about any eating and exercise program I decide to do, and my loss is going to be slow. I can't fall into the excuse trap.
I have a goal: I will lose 50 pounds by June 2006 by following the South Beach diet (it's the only thing that's even remotely worked for me), exercising, and journaling. I haven't outlined my program yet, but I will as soon as I get off this computer.
I guess I'm back because this has been a safe and understanding place for me in the past. The only thing I am asking of y'all is that you not let me make excuses for myself. When I'm whining about not losing weight, ask me if I've REALLY stuck to my plan. When I slip, DON'T tell me that it's "okay." One slip leads to many for me, and I just can't afford it. When I don't exercise, give me a virtual kick in the arse. Don't worry about pissing me off. I've heard that people tend to get pissed off when someone's telling them a truth they don't want to hear. If I get mad, that's probably why.
Welcome back, Jennelle, I've missed you (and how nice of you to return in time for the upcoming exciting skating season)
I'd like to invite you to join the Weekly Journal Buddy thread, where people stay accountable to themselves and each other by posting their eats, drinks and exercise on a daily basis. I kind of supervise it all by either giving praise or a swift kick in the butt, as applicable (and expect the same in return). Yes, I've become somewhat of the "board *****" in that regard, but hey, its better than being an enabler, right?
Welcome home. I say home because I feel like people here are my extended family. Which is great because only the people your close to can give you that swift kick in the arse that we all need at times.
Hey Jennelle!! Long time no see! It's great to see you. I have been hanging out here too long.. and not losing anything. I'm just waiting to get some kind of groove back.
I remember you as one of the very few people who welcomed me when I poured my heart out on the OA board, so I'd like to return the welcome! I'd just like to say that you CAN do it! I have really struggled with eating issues for the past 20 years and now I am finally taking control and the weight has steadily (and slowly) been coming off since Jan. My metabolism was also screwed from all the yo yo dieting - it is only now that has finally raised to a level where I am losing steadily most weeks. My secret?.....exercise, exercise, exercise! It's taken 6 months of gradually building up, but I am now working out at the gym 5 -6 days a week and finally feel that my metabolism is 'right'. So the good news is you CAN undo the damage and your metabolism CAN right itself with time and effort.
You really sound like you've got your mind made up, and that's most of the battle -- as you know. So far, your plan sounds great -- South Beach seems like a really sensible way of eating, and sustainable for a lot of people over the long term.
I'm really glad you came back. Our arms are open, and our kicking shoes are heavy.
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Our arms are open, and our kicking shoes are heavy. 
Welcome Back!
