Oh, my. Cacky, I love your idea on dealing with your temptations. That you would pray for your parents. That you would focus on someone else besides yourself.
I feel as if you've sent me a beam of light, dear girl. When I'm tempted by food, all I'm focusing on is ME. It's as though I've shut out the rest of the world, and I'm darned if I'm going to let them back in until I've satisfied my craving.
I suddenly see how selfish that is! You know, I like to consider myself as being very caring towards the people I love. I've always told myself that I eat poorly because I don't care about
myself.
But now I think maybe that's all wrong. I mean, I want to be healthy for myself, but more importantly, I want to be healthy for my children. I want to play soccer with them, and not have to say after five minutes, "I have to stop and rest now. That's enough for today." I've suddenly realized how selfish I am being. When I eat, it's all about me. No one can stop me. And I sneak food, and I cheat on diets. All day long, I'm thinking about what I'm going to eat next. Obviously, although I care about other people, I'm just putting myself and my greed first. That's such an ugly thought.
Okay, this is TOTALLY jumbled, but I've had a revelation, and as long as
I "get it", that's all that matters, right?
Thank you so much, Cacky, and Susanna, thank you for your input!
Survived the Grocery Store
I had a very different view of 12 strp programs before I came to one looking for a diet, which they don't even have. There are eight tools, very helpful. Let's see how many I can remember: anonymity, writing, the phone, food plan, the steps, meetings, service, literature (had to look some up.) Here's a link: 
