It is so funny - in an ironic way that is. I log back in here, into this forum specifically, only once a month, usually when I am at my most low.
I don't know why I don't hang out here more often. Lordess knows I can use any support I can get.
But the fact is that I don't. I never felt all that welcome here, or the comraderie that most of you feel with one another. That could be me [most probable] or you or a combination.
But anyway, I come back here tonight. I want to binge. To feel better, if only for a few moments before I then feel guilty. But when I looked at my old signature, I was 4 lbs heavier than I am now.
That stopped the binge in a heartbeat!
So, instead of not writing and just reading, I thought I would share. A lot has changed, both with me and around here at the site since I last hung out here.
So glad to have you back for a visit! And I'm glad you made the right choice - that's better than me today. Not exactly bingeing, but overeating. And congrats on even more losses! You're so close to losing the milestone of 50 lbs. and 1derland. Amazing! Congrats again!
congrats on your loss, you have come along way to get to where you are. knowing that maybe just checking in... and seeing your signature could pick you back up is awesome. this is a great group and we have tons of support to share, so keep coming back when ever you need us! take care, onderland is super close, you will totally get there!
Jenne: Your right! Change is really good, and you are doing great! The decision not to binge today, will lead you to become stronger each day, and to continue down a great path!
Ate healthy this morning, and for lunch too. It just makes me feel helpless sometimes - -I only lost .6 in 2 weeks, after being super-good at the gym! I know it might be muscle build-up but still.
Jenn: It's good seeing you around again! And, your new avatar is fabulous -- you look great! We'd love to have you around any time you can make it here. You're doing wonderful! Keep it up!
we have something in common jenn, not feeling so welcome in forums like this, specially when people have been chatting for sometime, it's kinda difficult to find an entrance. but no one's rude here, so that really helps. i also don't come and visit that often, but i find a lot of inspiration when i do, because so many posts tell of little victories. and i can't help but think that i too can reach my goal if i work hard enough
i hope i get some of those good changes in my life too. soon
Jenne, you look so great! Your pictures really show the changes and hard work you've put in- you don't even look like the same person. Your success just inspired me to get back to the gym, so as soon as I get off the computer I'm heading that way! Thanks.
jenne - Thanks! yeah.. still here and still fighting the weight. Maybe someday i will reach my goal weight and stay there. It probably won't be until I graduate and get married... cause then my life will be much more calm.
Jaime -- good for you!!!! Honestly, I don't see that much of a difference. And sometimes, I still feel like the old me -- fat and one that didn't care about it. But I know it's not the case -- my clothing has gotten much smaller, even if I can't see it, I can certainly see the tags in my shirts and pants!
Tonic -- you know what? You've done an AWESOME job thus far. And if it takes another year or 12, then so be it. You are healthier now than before and while you may not be workign on it now, you have it in the back of your mind and I know won't foul things up.
Holly- you dork...this is the first time I am here in over a month!
Jdogg -- thanks for the compliment. I don't recall your handle -- did you know me way back when???
Thanks again everyone!
will you really be my buddy jenne? i hope i make a good one
i have good news, i lost another 2lbs over the past week. yay yay! it surprised me when i stepped on the scale this evening and saw that i tipped it at 183! but i say, (+)(-)2, so i'm putting my weight down at 185 for now
2lbs went off just like that, by choosing what i eat. i can't wait to get back to walking every evening, and tennis 3 times a week.
oh, and ive been meaning to say this, your pictures say a lot about your progress! way to go and keep it up. sometimes we tend to have blinders on our eyes that just keep us from believing that we really have lost a significant amount of weight, even when the pictures and the scales tell us so. it probably is due to the fact we've been so used to being big that we always think about ourselves as so. just remember, you work your *** off to get the weight off, so don't kill yourself by not recognizing your little victories
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i also don't come and visit that often, but i find a lot of inspiration when i do, because so many posts tell of little victories. and i can't help but think that i too can reach my goal if i work hard enough 
sometimes we tend to have blinders on our eyes that just keep us from believing that we really have lost a significant amount of weight, even when the pictures and the scales tell us so. it probably is due to the fact we've been so used to being big that we always think about ourselves as so. just remember, you work your *** off to get the weight off, so don't kill yourself by not recognizing your little victories 
