[elizabecca]

I wish we had snowflake smilies! It's another snow day for us. There's so much ice and muck on the roads and the air is so cold, I wonder if we'll even be able to go tomorrow. Darn...

Ellis -- How do you walk in all of that gear?! I'm picturing you all bundled up like Randy in A Christmas Story. Have you ever seen that movie? It's one of my all time favorites!

Am I in the boonies? Tee-hee! The town I live in has one stoplight. Does that tell you anything?

Kat -- We get flood days once in awhile, too. I'll bet your family was shocked to see your home on the news!

How's your cleaning going? I used a good portion of my morning yesterday cleaning our house. I told my daughters they were my "slave labor" for an hour or so. They had been more than a little rowdy on Sunday and it was time to make up for it! The little one doesn't mind, but the big one...she's getting dangerously close to puberty and all the drama that brings, I'm afraid!

Chris -- Back on night shift, huh? My mom loved night shift as an ER nurse. I think it would be sort of surreal to be working when most of your world is sleeping. Not much chance of shift work in my business!

I miss your chatty posts! Hope you have time to pop in for a good visit soon. (((hugs)))

Jennelle and Sarah -- How's it going? Can't wait to hear from you.

I finally got my Big Book, 12 x 12, and workbook yesterday. It seemed like it took forever to arrive! I'm really ready to dig in to it. I finished my obesity history writing last night. Well, I mean I brought it up to where I am with this battle right now. It ended up being 13 pages long! (Issues...yes, I know, Ellis!) I feel ten pounds lighter just writing all that down, like I don't have to carry it with me all the time anymore.

I really need to send it to my sponsor, but I have a dilemma there. Remember a week or so ago when I posted the question asking about your sponsors? I had decided to stick it out with mine. Rationale -- maybe I was too needy and expecting too much. But, as of this morning, I haven't heard from my sponsor since Saturday, even though I've conscientiously emailed my writing and food plans each day. I need more feedback. So now I have to figure out exactly what to do next. I'll have to ask someone else to be my sponsor and tell the current one that it just isn't working out for me. I can't stand anything that even hints at being confrontational or might make people think less of me. Send some prayers my way that I handle this in the right manner.

Enough from me! I've written another novel here! Hope everyone has a great day!

Lots o' hugs,
Christy

[ellis]

You ARE in the boonies, Christy! We used to be, too. I remember those "snow days". Now that we're back in Centretown, the school has to burst a pipe of something similar to shut down for the day.
No, I haven't seen A Christmas Story.
I'll say for prayers for you re: your sponser. I can relate to how you're feeling, hon. I hate confrontations, too. I keep everything inside until I explode with anger or contempt. NOT good. We're short on communication skills.

DD starts her new term tomorrow. I think I'll get her to make meatballs with me today. A big batch for freezing. She's still sleeping, and I'm having a good quiet time with my coffee.

Where is everyone!? Jennelle, Chris, Sarah, Kat!?
love and hugs to all...

[KatSLP]

Morning ladies!

I have a super long meeting this morning at work. Wish me luck.

I'll post a longer post this afternoon.

Have a great day!

[ellis]

Thinking of you, Kat!

[Jennelle]

Sorry I didn't check in yesterday. We had our county spelling bee and I took a few of the contestants whose parents couldn't attend. They did pretty well, considering we didn't know we were competing until about six weeks ago! (Really, if you are a serious Bee contestant, you start at the beginning of the school year with word lists and Latin and Greek roots and all that other fun nerdy stuff. )

I had a really tough day on Sunday...but as I was laying in bed just trembling from the emotional pain I was in, I heard a voice in my head just as clear as a bell: "I will not forsake you." Of course, I started to cry, but it was tears of relief.

I'm still abstinent, by the grace of God. I forgot my lunch today and had to eat in the cafeteria, and I almost lost my mind when I saw they were having pizza! is one of my evil abstinence foods! I figured I would have to fill up on pineapple tidbits and corn, until I saw they were also serving chicken and rice. Whew!

Hello to everyone....I have my timer set and I only have one minute of time left!

Later,
Jennelle

[KatSLP]

Hi there,

Ugh - I had a meeting today that went over 4 1/2 hours! Glad to be home!

Jennelle: Thanks for checking in. I am glad your HP came through for you (HP has such a talent there! ). Did you ever see the documentary Spellbound? It just came out on video.

Christy: Good luck with the whole sponsor thing. Good for you for seeking out what you need! I totally understand how it'll be hard to let her/him go, but that's part of the program. Let her go with love and hopefully she'll react with the same.

Chris: How's it going?

Ellis: How did the meatballs go? Don't you love quiet time with coffee? So relaxing. DH sleeps in later than me on the weekends, usually, so I often get to chill for a bit before he gets up. That'll be gone when we have wee ones, though.

I am still cleaning. I am doing it in spurts. I have some major laundry to do (can't wait to some day have a washer and dryer in my place) but will do that in a day or so. DH and I are clutter bugs so we have lots of piles everywhere. He's helping, too, which is awesome.

OK, have a great evening!

[rochemist]

Hi Everyone

I was busy thumbing my nose at the world last night, and thought about doing it tonight, but I rather be healthy than mired in my own BS. Its the snow. The snowstorm yesterday was terrible. No help from DH digging my car out of the snowdrift, you know I am so macho and I do have my Carharts on Had to leave the house at 1700 for my shift which doesn't begin till 1915 The roads were terrible and I drove about 40 mph all the way from Omaha, but thank God I made it safely. I didn't want to talk to God either the snow was stressing me out. So here I am the first night of night shift and I am hungry, angry, lonely, tired, and stressed. Did I use a tool? Did I pick up the phone? Did I write in my journal or post with ya'll. No I got mad and pouted Then I ate a Snickers bar, and I know I was totally screwed up when I hid the wrapper under everything. Who was I hiding it from? ME! Then I shut down I didn't eat till I got hungry for breakfast around 0500. I guess self-punishment for trying to throw my abstinence out the window I had good clean food, and did the Serenity prayer, but I still wasn't ready to surrender I went home, took a shower and fell asleep. When I woke up I told my DH what happend, I told him I needed to be honest with myself and my FP sponsor. That I needed to give the stress and my crap over to God, and start here tonight with all of you So here I am. Ashamed and still cold and still tired. But I talked to God and he told me to not hide, just like I tell all of you. One slip is what it was and He will help me. So its off my chest, I feel kinda better.

Christy- You find the right sponsor for you lady, your not too needy. We need other people to help us be responsible for facilitating our recovery. Whats the word on the Liberty?

Kat- If you still find the need to do spurts of cleaning come on over!

Jenelle- Its wonderful to have a God moment. I have heard those same words. I also would say he gave you options today in the cafeteria

Ellis- Hope your dressing warm. I am wearing 4 layers of clothes tonight so I can freeze in my corner office. No I am not in the boonie, I just work there You will get what you need out of the therapy, feel free to use what you need to get the foodie stuff out.

Love you all!
Miss Chris

[KatSLP]

Chris!

Hurray for you for being honest and using the tools. Yes, you didn't instantly but what's awesome and important is you did right now! Writing here is a tool.

I'm sorry you had a tough day. But I bet it's getting better as you're talking to your HP, using your tools, etc...

[BerkshireGrl]

Chris - yeay for you to being strong after your lapse! For being honest about it, and for getting right where you should be in your head. :

Ellis - I am here but did not have much time this morning to post! I got up a half hour late because I was soooo tired! Then I rushed rushed to get to art class on time. God forbid I be late for THAT! Now I know, when class is at 9:30 a half hour away, I need to get up at 7:00 am sharp! Cause I gotta get in my eggs, bacon & coffee, shower, hair, little make-up to hide lack of sleep... and of course, reading y'all here!

Some things are just crucial in the morning! We need a smilie with a coffee mug heh! I seriously feel like this is a real part of my morning now (and night) and you all are helping me truly! Having buddies to confide in makes a huge difference in my outlook!

You might not be in my home with me, but you are in my heart and mind.