... I am moving as graceful as a ballerina. I do wear clothes I actually like and I breathe into my tummy because it won't stick out when I do. Which means I could actually sing better. And feel less uptight.
I imagine I would feel less physical pain because all that weight wouldn't pull me down anymore. I imagine I would feel like I could fly instead of carrying a big bag of stones around with me all the time.
I don't really care too much about looks, though. I mean, I'd like to feel good about myself again, which usually starts at around 71 kg (or lower of course, I am really short
). Currently I am 4-5 kg away from that line and struggling, struggling, struggling like never before.
[I'd like to add here I am not a native speaker, so if I sound weird or what I say is incomprehensible, please let me know how to fix it, I won't be offended but grateful!]
I came here from a long journey and I won't be able to tell it all, I would have to write a book and then sequels...
But maybe about the last three years. After many years of being overweight or obese (yoyoing) and reaching the scary "100 kg" line several times, I finally made my way down to the exact line (BMI-wise) between "overweight" and "normal", but never ever crossed that line, which really makes me think...
In the course of my weight loss journey I switched to "mainly vegan" (for ethical reasons, but I do have my weaknesses there :-/ working on it) and since then I had a hard time losing more or even maintaining (put on 4 kgs this year :-/). I don't want to blame it on the vegan diet, but I find it very easy to overeat this way - well I find it easy to overeat in any diet, but I didn't actually expect it to be that easy when you're eating vegan. Nuts, nut butters, legumes, grains, fruit... well.
I went "mainly vegan" two years ago and since then I tried water fasting, intermittent fasting, no sugar and many other concepts.
Right now I think I actually need other people around to ... I don't know, can you say "keep me accountable"?
I think I'll look for an easy way to create a blog where I'll just try and post my everyday journey.
Because right now I really don't feel good with myself. And I do have the power to change that if I am and stay committed. I know how it works, I did it before.
btw... I DO count calories for three years now. I'm not sure how you folks see that... for me I know I'd never have lost that much and I'd already be up to 100 kgs again because I always underestimate what I eat. It's just safer for me. Also I do have a chronic disease which makes my metabolism slower (proven) and also most times makes it hard to work out. So I do have to watch my "input"...
Hope that wasn't too much for an intro... Now I will be diving around here a little and have a look at your stories
have a blessed day, everyone!