I ran across this forum and the title stopped me dead in my tracks.

I thought "Hey, who are these 3 fat chicks who started a forum?" Thus, my past couple of hours have been reading through many different parts of the site and finally decided to register just for grins. I am not really the forum type. I'm not really the "Here I Am, Help me!" type of person but, Here I am, help me, if you feel drawn to digitally converse with me on a hap-hazard basis.
I just turned 65 about a month ago. I still work full-time as an executive assistant, which means I do everything (duties as assigned). My work pace us slower as I age. I have adult children, and several adult grandchildren, and several teenage grandchildren. I even have one great grandchild. None of them live close to me. I have a second husband for the past 36 years. I am a born-again Evangelical Christian first and foremost. Everyone who knows me knows my motto is "Faith, Family, Friends" exactly in that order. I have been blessed in my life and will be the first to say I do not know why, especially when I have watched others suffer. My health was perfect up until last year when a brain tumor was found. But praise God, it was removed and benign! Fast forward nine months and now I have a foot problem going on. Oh dear, I am falling apart. I try to warn my younger friends that once 60 hits, LOOK OUT! There is plenty more I could put in this paragraph but I will stop here, for now.
As far as the weight part of me, there is too much! I started having weight issues when I hit puberty at age 14. I gained roughly 25 pounds from eating everything in sight. By age 16 I weighed 160 pounds. Of course none of the boys bothered me. I was alone while all of my girlfriends found the loves of their lives. I dropped 30 pounds in one summer before my Junior year of High School and the boys noticed. I married one at age 19 and divorced him at age 28. My entire life has been a series of weight gains and weight losses. My grandmother tried to tell me it was all because of my German heritage. Big bones. During the times of my life I was at my lowest weight I was generally living off of coffee and cigarettes. The cigarettes are gone except for the minimal cheat once in a while but the coffee is still a staple as is the sugar, the carbs, the meat, the food in general. My latest diet was with Nutrisystem for 3 months which resulted in a 10 pound $750 loss which was gained back within 2 months of going off the plan. My body is so fine tuned to weight loss that even today on a daily 1000 calorie plan I lose nothing. My fat cells hold on to every little bit of containment! They know we are in famine mode again!
I am at a point in my life where I want to just hang it all up and quit trying. No one is looking at a 65 year old white haired grandma. My husband doesn't care how I look. He loves me for the inner me not the outer me. (His words). My family and my friends say the same.
I am very tired of the weight battle and being at the 200 pound mark is the highest I have ever been. My closets are filled with 3 different sizes and the largest size is getting tight so I am at the point where I have to do something. Lose weight or buy bigger clothes.
I know I am not alone in this decades long battle. I know that if I would exercise on a frequent basis I could lose some weight. I know I am not a consistent person. I do things for a while and then I quit or move on to something else. I don't have a group of family or friends to support me in an exercise program. On weekdays, I slowly get out of bed, go to work, and come home exhausted. On weekends, I clean a part of the 2500 square foot home we own, or work in the yard, read a book, watch a movie, take a nap, go to church and get ready for my office job (sitting at a desk in front of a computer) on Monday. My activity level is sedate, which I why I weigh 200 pounds. I am honest about why I am overweight. Even one of my doctors last year, who is also overweight, told me that I would feel better if I lost 50 pounds which I totally agree with. She did not have any answers on how to do that.
So now that I have spilled my guts all over this 3 fat chicks forum in this introduction I wonder if there will be any kindred spirit who will respond to me with some helpful advice or at least an "I hear you!". If not, I at least got to put my thoughts on a page instead of bottled up inside my overactive thought pattern.