Oh Yeah, somehow I have fooled myself into thinking I'm not as big as I am. It only hits home when I see a picture of myself.
This. I look at myself in the mirror and I think I look ok-ish. Then I see pictures of myself and I'm disgusted, the woman there REALLY looks like she carries my weight!
Here's another "I am working really hard". In reality, I may have made a couple of small changes at the most. I do think about it a lot and what I should be doing. For whatever reason, that feels like hard work to me.
I am my own worst enemy in many ways, but especially when it comes to food. "It won't matter this one time." "I'll start again tomorrow." "It's not that much." "I'll just skip lunch tomorrow." Blah, blah, blah, on and on.