[Ekm1312]

About a year and a half ago I gained about 50-60 lbs in a serious bout of depression. I have fallen in and out of serious depressions that make it impossible for me to have the things I would have liked to have by now (husband, children...) because I can only seem to stay normal for 6 month periods. During those times I have been able to get into some relationships that then crumble in the following years as the poor boyfriend tries to make me happy but I become more and more depressed and gain weight to the point where I won’t see friends and am too ashamed to have sex.
Anyway, I had given up hope but I changed my mind. I want to lose this 50 pounds so that I can be confident and happy enough with myself to find someone and have a real life. Now in my 30’s if I keep this social isolation up I will lose my chance at ever having happiness and love and a family. I’m really hoping I can keep up the motivation. I would like to reach my goal weight in May 2018!

[letsgetaway]

Thank you for your post. It shares a lot what is currently on my mind and closley mirrors my own situation (age, relationship status, depression, losing weight of course hehe). It's good you're working on your health.

[SweetEpiphany]

Ekm1312, you are so brave to share your struggle with us here. I believe that you can reach your goal buy May 2018. Are you working with mental health professionals to help you manage your depression? I've never experienced what you are going through, but I'm a firm believer that we have to use all the resources and support systems that we can muster if we want to make a permanent change and stop the yo-yo losing and gaining. So, if you have access to a mental health professional, I'd recommend that you share your goals with that person. You deserve all that you wish for your life.

[Ekm1312]

Thanks for the responses! Yes I have a therapist and a psychiatrist. Today is the end of the first week of logging calories and increasing calories. So that’s a start at least

[SweetEpiphany]

Originally Posted by Ekm1312

Thanks for the responses! Yes I have a therapist and a psychiatrist. Today is the end of the first week of logging calories and increasing calories. So that’s a start at least

Congratulations for making it one week Logging food everyday can be tedious before it becomes a habit. This is a great start for you.

[SeaEmElle]

Thanks for sharing your story, i find it very relatable. In the past 4 years, I've gained 80 pounds and have been unable to maintain a romantic relationship.