Hi
HI everyone!
I am a mom of 3 little kiddos and have somehow found my way to my highest weight ever. I don't even know how i got here. I've struggled with my weight my whole life. I have been up and down and all over the roller coaster. I was actually a 3FC member when i was a teenager and managed to lose around 30lb then. I've been all over the map. I struggled with an eating disorder for 6 years, i have since learned healthy habits with food and figured out my triggers and warning signs for bad behaviors too. I don't even 'hate' the way i look now, i'm just not comfortable and don't feel like myself. I feel lost in my own body. Nothing seems to be working and i'm struggling with my next move. I have been diligently watching my calories and exercising for two weeks and have somehow gained weight. I also hurt my leg in the process so i'm not working out this week which bums me out too. I want to exercise for health more than weight loss but i know weightloss is about both food and activity. I have lost weight a number of ways. Simple cutting back portions and exercise (in my teens), not eat at all in my 20s. Then i started south beach diet which is ultimately how i recovered from my eating disorder. I learned i could eat healthy food and not blow up. i lost 20-25lb for my wedding doing SBD. Maybe that is what i need to go back to? I got a job after i got married teaching preschool and started eating crappy kid food and gained 10ish lb back. Then i had a miscarriage and eventually got pregnant again weighing about 10-15lb more than i did when i got married. After my first baby i dropped 40+lb just from breastfeeding i assume. I wasn't dieting, wasn't exercising, wasn't particularly busy. I just got lucky. After my 2nd child it came off fairly quickly too. My 3rd though...its been a struggle since. He is 3 now and i know i have to do something before it gets totally out of control. I always thought i had a handle on things and could make the changes needed when i decided it needed to be done, but i'm just really struggling. Most recently i went gluten free in september. I lost 10lb within 2 weeks and ultimately about 14 came off and stayed off over 3 months. I wasn't losing but i wasn't gaining either. After Christmas i gave in and my weight has been climbing since. I gained 20lb in 2-3 months. And yes i do overeat but i still don't know how i gained that much so quickly. So here i am...just trying to figure out what my next move should be. And i'm hoping to find some like minded people to help me stay focused. So if you read through all of that disorganized chatter, you're awesome! lol I think i really just needed to get those thoughts out.
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