[bodyreboot]

Hi! Turning 40 this month and starting a body reboot. Hence the username. I currently weigh 81kg and am 160cm. I normally weigh 65kg but over the last 12 years have let myself go. I didn't really restrict my food intake but have started doing more physical activity over the last 3 months and have lost 5kgs. My goal now is to lose 15kg and to look and feel better about myself. As I start my 40s, I want to be fit and healthy, aside from looking good.

Just a background. Weight has always been a problem for me. Even at 65kg then, I was told I was still fat and that i had to lose another 10kg. The lowest I've ever been during my adult life would be around 62kg when I did the South Beach Diet for 2 months. I was about 71kg then. Looking back at my old pictures 12 years ago, I was normal. Hindsight I guess. I wasn't confident about my looks and felt that I was big even back when I was normal. It didn't help that Asian women are tiny and slim and I don't fit into that body type. Always, the impetus to lose weight was for a guy to like me. I've been brainwashed even as a kid that nobody will like me because I'm fleshier. I've been putting it off, not feeling motivated enough and thinking that a guy should like me as I am and not because I weigh a few kgs more or less. Sob story aside, I'm taking control of my body and starting my 40s right.

I've always been heavier in my arms and legs. They're always the first to gain and the last to lose. My tummy and face are better. I don't really gain as much there and I lose weight in those areas first.

I've started cutting down food this week and have been active since this year doing walking, running and spinning classes. I'm doing a spiritual cleanse fast every Tuesday and Thursday wherein I survive on milk and fruits. Hopefully that shouldn't really affect all the calorie cutting, high protein/low fat ketogenic diet I'm trying/doing. I realize South Beach Diet is kinda ketoginic in a way. Plus the intermittent fasting 16/8. In short, eat much less and exercise much more but i know it's more important to cut what I eat.

I know I'm being impatient and it takes a lot more time to lose 15kg. Realistically speaking I want to lose 20kg. But I will aim for 15kg for now and go on from there. I'm not working now so I can work out more and eat less since I don't really need to concentrate on anything. I'm hoping to lose 5-7kgs the first month to really jump start it. Plus I have the extra buffer anyway. I'm looking at 3 months.

Probably TMI for you all but it feels good to pour it out and share. Joined this site for motivation and encouragement. Thanks.