Hi Like others said, welcome. Its okay that your "emotions came pouring out". Binge eating can be profoundly painful. Trying to deal with the pain of the relentless need to eat can be exhausting. I know.
Twice in one week i heard, unsolicited, that there is a neurochemistry link to food cravings. One woman was taking a new course. She learned from the instructor that trauma of any sort, even small trauma (if the brain registers it as a threat) can change the neurochemistry. The neurotransmitters are thrown off balance. Some people try to then get it all back in balance through food. one example that was used by the second person who told me of a course she took, said the teacher, perhaps a MD, talked about a young child who could not stop eating cheese. It was compulsive. When she researched the correlation between cheese and the biochemistry of the brain, she found the culprit. Perhaps dopamine?? I do not remember exactly. Anyway when the dr dealt with that, the child's enormous need for cheese resolved.
I have been thinking a lot about this lately. And because I heard it twice in one week, having nothing to do with me, I thought that perhaps this is a model of treatment that will soon be available to people. I hope so. Because the pain of food craving can be overwhelming.
I hope you find the answer for you. I ended up working with a reflex kinesioligist naturopath who muscle tested for foods I should not eat. I worked with her to get on track with my eating. One of the things for me was Candida. A microbe in the body that feeds off of sugar in foods. It screams feed me. Because its very survival is dependent on carbs/sugars. The only way to deal with that is to starve them. until they are either gone or dormant. The way to do that is with very low carb diet. But I do not think many people including myself can do that on their own. and the Candida was just one of the things with food. It can be daunting. (the naturopath moved away 4 years ago. I am slowly gaining again. The cravings overwhelming again. So it is an ongoing challenge. I think the whole neurochemistry thing sounds very interesting. I wish I knew practitioners who practice this way.
Anyway, sorry for writing so much. I hope you find what works for you. AND I hope this website/community can offer some support for you.