Heyooo!
Hi everyone! My name is Melanie and I am a 38 year old mommy to two scary, amazing kids (11 yr old girl and 6 yr old boy). I've always been a "big" girl, even when I was younger and actually fit. Over the years age, complacency and a million of other things have added to a slow but steady weight gain.
I really started gaining weight after having my thyroid "removed" via radiation due to Graves Disease. Now I'm on the other end of the spectrum and trying to keep my thyroid levels right via medication. I started working in IT back in 2012 and in the last few years I have really been working hard...which means I've spent A LOT of time behind a computer desk! LOL! Anyway, now I'm back in school to finish my bachelor's and I'm working for an awesome company as a firewall monkey but means I'm pretty much chained to my computer desk.
In the last year my family has had some members go through some scary health problems. This has really made me think about how I want to spend the rest of my life. I never thought that I would end up one of those people that don't like to leave the house, or meet up with people. (I live in fear of running into people that I knew back in my 20's. I look like the thing that ate Melanie) I mean, seriously. I've learned to live with the fact that regardless of what I look like, I'm going to be socially awkward. No getting around that. But I miss going on hikes, I love horses (I would like to be able to ride one that isn't the size of a Clydesdale aka Budweiser horse), and I just generally feel like I'm missing out on SO many things directly because of my weight.
Last year I started going to the gym with the hubs. It was great, I loved it! We would go in the mornings after taking the kids to school and do some cardio but mostly focused on weight training. After going 4-5 times a week for two months and yes, watching what we ate...I had only lost 12 pounds. It was sooo frustrating. So I went to the doctor, had my thyroid tested again and my levels were off. Awesome, let's fix that crap. Then summer came and the kids were out of school. For the first couple of days the novelty of sleeping in a bit (I work 2nd shift) was sooo nice. Then...it just went downhill from there and my friend the gym had to live its life without me.
Now I'm tired of being tired. I'm tired of my back hurting in the mornings when I wake up, regardless of where I sleep. I'm tired of getting dang tired doing housework. I mean, if the zombie apocalypse happens anytime soon, I'm screwed...I couldn't outrun a toddler at this point. (I probably could but I don't run unless I'm being chased by cops or tigers so we'll just assume)
I don't have the option to go to the gym now due to time constraints and transportation issues. What I do have is plenty of attitude and a set of P90 discs (that's a whole other story). I also have dumbbells, a manual stairstepper, and a very understanding family. Oh, I also have a food scale...let's not remember that. (I hate you food scale).
So ladies, if you're still reading then thanks! If not, I totally understand. Kind of started rambling there but it's been typed and I'm not deleting. I look forward to getting to know everyone and if anyone wants to reach out, please do! MUAH!!!
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