I am so exhausted and I can't deal with it anymore.
Yep. Fell off the wagon again. Lost 10lb, then I don't know what happened. Well, I do. I've been so tired and stressed from work I haven't found time to go to the grocery store and cook. I understand that that's an excuse, I really do. However I feel like I'm working with something most other people aren't: an extreme, unexplainable fatigue. At my next doctors appointment I need to have some blood work done to check for anemia, hypothyroid, and other things. It's SO insanely hard for me to do even daily tasks. Doing one thing, such as cleaning the apartment, or going grocery shopping, is an ALL DAY EVENT for me and I don't understand why. All I do is sleep. I've had to blow off social events because "sorry, I need to clean the apartment today." "that's like an hour job, why can't you still come see us?" BECAUSE I'M SO TIRED. My depression is getting worse again. I really want to lose this weight. I want to feel attractive, I want a better love life, a better social life, I want to have kids someday. So why am I still ****ing around with this? Why can't I just DO IT? Why am I content to sleep my life away? I'm only 26. I'm so tired of hearing from people x3 older than me that they can do this and that and the other and I should have loads of energy, or "I'm a nurse and only sleep 4 hours and I still find time to have hobbies and stuff" well great for you but I CAN'T. I've tried!
I don't know what to do. My insurance is dirt and I have so many things I need to look into, such as having a sleep study to see if I have sleep apnea or some other sleep disorder (they run in my family), get bloodwork done, continue to see my therapist, etc.
And on top of this I have a wedding to be in in October and I'm not making a dent in anything.
I don't know where to start or what to be most concerned with and I'm kind of making a rant here because I don't know where else to go or what to do.
Is it possible my energy level is all due to my weight? Something in me is telling me it isn't possible. I know people who are 300lb with 3 kids who manage to live life and I can't even get out of bed for 4 hours without being ridiculously tired. I just don't know.
Definitely have your vitamin D levels checked! My levels came back low and I had been feeling like a zombie. Even if you wanted to go to your local Walgreen or CVS before you get your blood work back, grab some D3 pills. I think I take the 5,000 iu pills. If that's what it is, you'll notice within the next day.
Second on vitamin D - most people in the US are deficient in such according to my doctor. The ones who can receive adequate amounts via the sun etc are those who live in the deep south. The rest of us need to supplement was what she said. I'd also push for a full thyroid panel when you go in. TSH, T3/T4 etc. What you are describing sounds like how I am when my synthroid dose is too low. I sit down and like 30 minutes later I could go to bed, no matter that it's only 330 in the afternoon. Do you have family history of thyroid problems? Weight and depression can also cause these issues, but if depression is new, it can also be a symptom dealing w/ the crazy thyroid. If you think there is possibility of thyroid, then ask to be referred to an endocrinologist. Sure your GP can monitor you, but you will have better help and understanding from and endo.
I really just don't know. I have vitamin D and magnesium I used to take before I went to bed every day (I work nights so I take the bulk of my medications when I get home in the morning), then I take b complex vitamins before work at night. I'm definitely going to ask for a full panel, and honestly I get nervous taking all these pills at once.
I literally take a vitamin d and magnesium pill, prozac, and sometimes a benadryl to get to sleep when I get home. Then when I wake up I take b complex, multi vitamin, and an adderall. That seems like a lot to me, especially to still be feeling so badly.
Depression runs in my family. My mom had a heart attack earlier this year and was diagnoised with diabetes as a result of gaining 30lb from some medication she was on, but it doesn't run in the family, and the doctor said if she got her weight down chances are she'd be fine.
It can be a combination of things. Once sleep and exhaustion hit like that it can be a vicious cycle. You can get in a place where your normal circadian rhythm is so messed up it is almost flat. You never really wake up during the day, so you never really sleep deeply at night, so you never really wake up during the day. Working nights can definitely exacerbate the situation. Benedryl can exacerbate (you sleep but not deeply and I get benedryl hangover for HOURS) And prozac can cause insomnia and so can adderall. My guess is your sleep is highly ineffective and some of the exhaustion is from meds more than weight.
Definitely get the full panel, and if you can the sleep study. They may need to tweak your medication or your medication timing or look into different sleep solutions.
In the meantime look at doing whatever you can to eat better. Not to lose weight. To eat better. Good food can support both good sleep and help with the depression. Nothing too extreme. Nothing too low/high (carb, protein,fat); extremes can be tricky. It doesnt have to be complicated food.
I agree with Ennay. Get the blood work done and the sleep study. Something you might want to look into is food allergy testing. (tests are called IGG and IGE). I had it done because of numerous issues that couldn't be pinned down and it turns out I am highly allergic to aboug 15+ common foods. Biggest one is gluten. I experimented and cut out gluten and within a week am no longer taking a 4 or 5 hour nap in the afternoons and I am much less moody and better able to control my emotions. Plus the incessant, uncontrollable gas is gone as well.
All you have to do is eliminate all gluten containing foods for 2 weeks and see if you feel better. If you wanted to double check, after going without, go back to your normal diet and see if the symptoms return. If they do, you are at least sensitive to it and should avoid it.
I am so exhausted and I can't deal with it anymore.
