Hi everybody,
I would say it's good to be here, but most of us would probably rather NOT be here!
Anyway, I'm Cammie, 45, single and approaching my highest weight ever. I think my lifetime highest was 201, and I'm about 193.6 right now. Which is horrifying because six months ago I was 167 and five years ago I was 132.
I have been varying degrees of heavy all my life, except for that short period a few years ago when I lost a ton of weight (yes, it was about a man). Of course, you know how this story ends....yeah, he was a jackass.
I managed to keep most of the weight off for 2 years, but then I went from a teaching job (university professor, which allowed me to work 3 days a week, and when I was working, I was mostly standing up and walking around a classroom) to a law firm job (at which I sit approximately 55 hours a week), and soon the weight started piling back on. It doesn't help that (1) everyone in my firm likes to leave treats in the office kitchen; (2) I take an antidepressant; and (3) I'm in my mid-40s and in perimenopause.
My eating has been out of control for a while now and I'm very depressed about it. Even though I've fought the battle of the bulge all my life, I was also very active until about a year ago. I had surgery for diverticulitis and I've never really regained my active self since that time - I feel like I have turned intoa a middle-aged slug.
I really, desperately want to get down to 140 again (ok, maybe 139 for ego reasons) and maintain it...but I feel right now like I am so addicted to sugar and white flour that I can't. So I decided to join to both get and give support.
All the best to all of you in your weight-loss journeys.
Cammie
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