Hi. I'm Bookmark.
I'm smack in the middle of my weight loss journey, my heaviest weight being around 280 and my goal being to reach and maintain around 170 - a goal I should be able to manage this year, woohoo!
After struggling with binge eating and compulsive eating for a long time, I began making progress towards mental and physical recovery a few years ago (with some ups and downs, along the way, naturally).
I lost about fifty pounds, two years ago, and then stalled for quite a while, going up and down between 215 and 230, while I tried to work out a balance for myself... in the past six months, though, I have (or had) found a really healthy, steady place of progress for myself.
I made it down to 195 just before Christmas, which is the lowest amount I have weighed since I was a teenager and is almost within a healthy range for my height and body type, FINALLY....I cannot express the joy and relief that came with getting below 200!
But Christmas derailed me (such a cliche!). I slipped back into some super unhealthy habits for the two weeks I was visiting family and then have been pretty down and totally unmotivated since coming home (which is actually quite far away from home and not a place I'm very happy about being most of the time)...and I stepped on the scale today to assess the damage and was horrified, though not really surprised, to find that I'd gained fifteen pounds in a month!
So....sigh....I'm back at 210. Hopefully at least some of that is bloating.
At the moment I'm just trying to shake off the negative feelings that come with this. And I am hoping that some support and accountability will get me back on track (and that the experience will serve as a reminder - maybe a final one! - of the slippery slope I'm playing on when I start thinking I can take "a little time off" from healthy living).
Thanks for reading