Finally weigh what the Driver's License says I do!
...but not for the reason you're probably thinking. Thing is, I got my L (learners) about three years ago, but never got lessons or taken out to drive, even in a parking lot! It expired and I left it for a year... But I figured enough is enough! I'm finally learning to drive! So I renewed my L and put my REAL weight down when they asked me, instead of what I hoped my weight was when I did it the first time (I will never know if I was 150 when I said I was!!! I was in denial and didn't look at a scale for years).
Truthfully, I am really embarrassed about the whole driving-thing. I'm 23, married, and I STILL don't know how to drive... I've mentored kids in my church when they were in middle school that are now old enough to drive and have their N's for goodness sake!!! I don't know what stopped me. I was very academically focused in high school and just kept putting it off... Never had my own car... And honestly, I'm just nervous. The whole idea of driving terrifies me, and I'm finally admiting it.
I was really excited and proud to pass the written test to get my L last Friday, but I'm too embarrassed to tell people because then I have to admit I can't drive. And passing the L seems so trivial...everyone I know did it easy, some without any studying! My best friend told some people younger than me that I highly respect that I couldn't drive a few months ago, not meanly but as a sort of "you should really go for it" kind of way trying to be supportive, but it made me feel terrible and it took everything in me not to cry. My parents tease about it sometimes, and I just hate myself for it. I HATE admittting it. I've told maybe four people, and one of them is my husband!!! I told my father-in-law today about how I want to drive soon and got this big talk about how its a mandatory skill everyone has and it was so demoralizing. I know he meant well, but why do you have to go on about how mandatory it is and how necessary it is, like my worth is all wrapped up in my ability to drive, especially after I already said how I was working on it! I'm hoping to get my N (novice) really soon, I can take the test whenever I want because I got my L the first time so long ago. But first, I actually have to learn to drive and I can only learn so fast.
So here I go! I'm telling you guys, cause it just feels safe here. My husband is old enough to take me driving and is really supportive and non-judgmental about the whole thing (he married me after all, and has never once complained that I can't drive, even when we bought our first car together! A car I can't even drive yet!). This weekend was my first time ever operating a vehicle in a parking lot, and it was scarier than I imagined. But if all of you guys can reach these amazing fitness goals and then some, and if I can loose over thirty pounds, then why can't I drive too? I also want a future where I can help drop off my younger friends who don't have cars yet. A future where I can pick up and drop off my kids to school and appointments when we can't walk. A future where I won't necessarily have to rely on transit all the time. (I don't have kids yet but want to some day!)
Last edited by SenseAndSensibility; 04-15-2015 at 02:18 AM.
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I'm so sorry that people give you such a hard time about this! but congrats on trying to conquer your fear 
and congrats on passing the written test!
and I was so afraid of her!! but I was like 51% YEARNING to learn, and 49% scared cr@pless 
so the part that wanted, won out. 