[CaraRandall]

Well, I weigh 260 or so. I'm 46 and have been fat all my life. All of it. I have struggled with it all my life. It has ALWAYS been a factor in everything that has gone on in my life.

I'd like to be down to 160-175. I have pretty heavy muscles due to a higher amount of testosterone, so that is how I'm made...I don't think I'd want to weigh less than 160.

What I do know is that, from working as an RN in a nursing home, I can see what my future is going to be. I take care of great big, sloppy, sloshing fat women who can't stand up on their own or wipe their own butts. Women only in their 60s who should still be vital and out doing things they enjoy, but they can't because their weight has trapped them...or they trapped themselves.

I don't want that.

I've done just about all kinds of diets, I think. It's never hard to lose weight, it just never stays away because I always go back to food as my happiness. Somehow the feeling of being fit isn't as important as eating. Why? It's a lifelong habit, I suppose.

So I have PCOS, aching here and there, anxiety and depression, etc. I've done Southbeach, WW, Nutrisystem, calorie counting, Slimfast...and other assorted plans and ideas. I've considered gastric sleeve, but can't get past the huge amount of money it takes.

I feel pretty awful, I eat terribly and I know better. I think I've been in a state of just giving up for awhile. Now I feel a part, deep down, wanting to come and take control of my life before it's too late.



Cara

[nikiniknafs]

You are not alone! I have been where you are and there are days that I go back to that dark place again. In my journey I found out that I seek food to cope with past trauma in my life and when there is trigger point (which there was on a daily basis) then I would go back to my bad habits automatically.

My suggestion to you would be to deal with the mental aspect of your situation first before you set yourself up again to fail and carry this cycle over and over again.

What are you really good at? What is your favorite activity to do? What would you like to do even if you didn't get paid for it? Find a piece of happiness and spend your energy that way instead of dieting all the time. It's time to enjoy life as if it was your last day on earth ... you wouldn't be dieting would you?

[Liliann]

Welcome I am 48 y/o and struggled with pcos for many years...along with weight battle...You are not alone, as we aged, weight loss is tougher..but the thing is never give up the fight. It was easier in my 20s and 30s, but now, with facial hair/weight....its an everyday battle...New day, is a new beginning...Good luck with your efforts..We can do this!!!