Back to the beginning
This time last year, I was at 139lbs and now I'm 186. I used to be so active with three jobs and working out once a week with a personal trainer doing weightlifting. Now I'm a stay-at-home mom and not very active anymore. That mixed with very bad food choices has led me here.
I haven't weighed this much since before I got my first full-time job back in 2012. Having jobs that required me to constantly be on my feet and too busy to mindlessly munch has helped me lose weight. Then I got a personal trainer in 2013 who helped me tone down and actually run a mile without stopping; something I've never been able to do. I stopped working out with that trainer but eventually got a personal trainer to do weight lifting twice a week, then down to one, but that helped me tone up my body and increase my strength. I was able to fit clothes I was only able to fit in high school.
Well, here I am. Back at the beginning. This time, no job or personal trainer to keep me active. So I decided to sign up as a coach for this company that sells workout programs. I mostly did it for the good discount and not-so-much to make an income. I think I need to finish a few programs before feeling adequate enough to even support someone else who's on the same path as I am to lose weight and become more healthy.
I'm not here to try and promote the company or anything. I needed a place to vent and just be able to talk to people who are going through the same things I am. I could easily write all this down on my Facebook or twitter, but I just feel so ashamed of my weight gain. When I was working out and losing weight, finally seeing results I worked so hard for, I told myself that I would never go back to being this heavy ever again. I even got rid of all my clothes that were too loose on m, confident that I would never have to wear them again. Now here I am, with a closet full of clothes that are too tight and small. Just the other day, I ripped my only pair of pants that fit me. They were kind of like jeggings, so that was definitely embarrassing.
I guess I'll end this long conversation with myself. I don't expect anyone to really read this long introduction, but it feels good to let it out. I can't wait to meet new people here, who are going through some the same journey as I am to a healthier, fitter version of ourselves.
Last edited by LotusFlower89; 04-01-2015 at 02:01 PM.
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