I am in the same boat! I swore I would never weigh as much as my mother who weighted 350# growing up. When I stepped on the scale and realized I weighed 346, I decided that day enough was enough. I've tried losing weight before but same thing, every time I would fall or eat something I shouldn't or skip a workout that was it. I was a failure who would never be thin or fit and I would eat a whole cake. it is hard to admit that. But, I KNOW my struggles. I started with 30 days. If I could commit to being "good" 80% of the time for 30 days, and bad for 20, then I could do it full time. And here it is less than 6 weeks later, I am down 20# and learning things I never realized before. Like, when I ate at a restaurant last week for the first time in a month, I was so bloated the next day and sick at my stomach- all the "bad" things I used to eat all the time made me sick, I just thought it was normal. Now I know how good I can feel eating clean and exercising- even running!!! and I know that eating those things makes me feel puny and gross on the inside. It is still baby steps. If I plan ahead, and grab just what I know I should eat and nothing else, I'm good for the day. I started with diet soda and once I got past the withdrawals, I was so ok! Then fast food had to go. Then restaurant food. Then high fat red meat... baby steps. That's the ticket!!!! Good luck!!!
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