I'm back on this slow moving train. I started having problems with my weight when I was 19. The Navy told me I was fat. (In my defense, back then they had a skewed idea what a women was suppose to look like). I was 5'6 and weighed 156lbs. That was the start of me having to get taped every 6 months for the rest of my life. I got bigger over the years, but when I got married, I was a little unhappy with my weight but over all okay with being 175. I felt comfortable in my own skin but that was the start of my downfall.
After getting married, I couldn't just take off and go to the gym for 2 hours everyday. Once kids started, I never seem to have any time for myself.
When I got pregnant in 2007 I weighed 180, I went into the hospital at 240.
When I got pregnant in 2008 I weighed 236, I went into the hospital at 305.
When I got pregnant in 2010 I weighed 190, I went into the hospital at 210.
When I got pregnant in 2012 I weighed 205, I went into the hospital at 265.
When I got pregnant in 2013 I weighed 230, I went into the hospital at 260.
........And now I am 246! I am in the worst shape of my life and don't know how I am ever going to recover.
I dread this. In 2009 when I lost close to 100lbs after giving birth, all my husband did was complain about the food I cooked and I was trying to starve him cause god forbid we eat healthy. (Mind you he has gain a considerable amount since we got married, but he still insist that he needs 3500 calories a day to survive).
With kids, I don't know how I am going to do this. They seem to live off carbs. I almost never see them eat a vegetable (unless I sneak it in). I put it on their plate but they refuse to eat it. I guess I am going to have 4 hungry kids, oh well.
I chose Atkins because I like meat and vegetables. My downfall; spaghetti. I know I am still going to have cheat days where I will eat it but overall, I plan on being good.
I haven't started it yet. We will be moving soon and it doesn't make sense to buy all new food. We are going to eat through what we have and start fresh at the new place.
I know I am going to have to find some way to modify my cooking to fit my diet and still feed them. But I will not be buying any more mac and cheese. The kids are really the only one who like it and I think it is about time they tried cauliflower and cheese. Perhaps for my spaghetti cheat day I will use squash noodles.
Who knows, ???
Here I go again
