I've been very lucky to never have a problem with weight before now. I have a loooong back story... but for now, let's just say that after having a very difficult pregnancy, during which I lost weight, I ended up gaining too much in the last three months. Since then, I've been stuck - I've never had a healthy relationship with food and it's been keeping me from losing the weight for a few years.
My biggest problem is that I don't eat during the day, and my first meal is usually dinner. I regularly go 1-1 1/2 days without eating because I don't feel like it, but the flip side is I also regularly eat too much between dinner and bedtime. As a result, I will (indadvertedly) lose 8-10 pounds in two weeks, then gain 8-10 the next two weeks. I know it's not healthy, but I've always been this way, even as a kid. Unfortunately, now it's a lifestyle and I'm stuck.
The crux is I have a liver problem leftover from pregnancy. Right now, I can pass for 10-15 pounds over "normal" for my height, and because of that, I've been deluding myself by thinking I'm not really overweight. Two weeks ago, after finding out my liver is starting to get worse, my doctor told me bluntly that not only am I overweight, I'm OBESE and that I need to lose 50 pounds immediately or I will get worse. It was heartbreaking. I don't think I look that overweight, and even now, I get compliments on my figure. I certainly didn't think I was obese! That was a real eye-opener for me.
So basically, I need to finally lose this extra weight. I've already dropped 7 pounds since that appointment, but I need to learn how to eat properly. I have access to a nutritionist, but I know WHAT to eat... It's the actual eating that I can't manage correctly. It's even harder with my husband deployed. He's a medic and a worry-wort, and gets concerned over bruises, so I haven't told him what's going on - he would PANIC. But without him to lean on for support and guidance, I feel a little lost. So, here I am
The first 50 pounds are most important, but I would like to be back to my pre-pregnancy weight since I'm already here. That would mean I actually have 68-73 pounds to lose. I think with the right support, I can definitely do that!