Hello to everyone. I'm almost 30 years old (GAH
), married, no children. I'm currently at my second highest weight at 327 pounds and almost 6 ft tall. I've been temporarily successful on diets many times, but my motivation is lacking. I have PCOS, and the related infertility issues that come with it (which in turn over the years has caused some self-esteem issues - with the extra hair, except on my head where it belongs, extra weight, inability to conceive a child - which makes me feel like less of a woman).
But, today is a new day. I'm more determined than ever to get the weight off this time. My hubs gets paid Friday so I plan on trashing all the bad food in my kitchen, buying only healthy foods to replace it, and going on a diet that is oriented to PCOS (low carb, higher lean protein, organic), as well as supplements and exercise that is more geared to dealing with the issues caused by PCOS.
My motivation? I REALLY want to have a baby, and my biological clock is screaming so much louder than it ever has. To be honest though, I also want to do it obviously to look better, but also to feel better. I want to be able to buy my clothes from the regular section at the store, and find things that look good on me. I want to be more attractive to my husband. There are so many reasons.
My plan? Well, it's in tiers. I've already done the first phases. Acquired a good pair of tennis shoes, took the treadmill out of storage, bought some workout tapes, planned a menu (to make grocery shopping easier) to follow, and gave up my biggest vice - besides food- caffeine. I also plan on trying to fill my life with more positive people, activities, books, TV shows, events, etc. I want to try to eliminate stress and hopefully that will keep my temptation lower without stress eating.
Last - goals. I have several short terms goals (and I'm looking into rewarding them with non-food items to maybe make it more motivating - like say buying new clothes, new jewelry, going somewhere I've never been). They are all small so I can hopefully reach one every month or so. I think, for myself, to keep up motivation two dozen small goals are better than one large goal that I ultimately lose motivation and don't get to. So the goals are:
1. 315 pounds
2. 299 pounds (to be below the dreaded 300)
3. Lose 10%, or 33 pounds - taking me to 294 - not much below the last one, but I think it's an important milestone
4. To get to 280. This is the weight my period normally starts to regulate (one step closer to the baby making goal) It's also what I weighed on my wedding day, so double goal.
5. Get to 260 (another 20 pounds down - I don't want my mini goals to be too far apart) This is the lowest I have been in 10 years.
6. Lose 25%, or 82 pounds - getting me down to 245 pounds. I think it would be totally awesome to only be 3/4 the size I was when I started, how amazing.
7. Get to 230. Lowest weight since high school.
8. Lose 1/3 of my weight, 108 pounds leaving me at 219.
Which takes me to my 9th, and for now final, goal. To get to 199 pounds. I want to say I am under 200 pounds, that is my big goal. I would lose 128 pounds, from a BMI of 45.6 to 27.8 and change my classification as morbidly obese to overweight.
So, that's me for now. I will look over more message boards later, but it's way past time for bed.
I feel like it's the first day at a new school...
You are going to do great! You have a purpose, a plan, motivation and determination! You can do this! You'll find lots of support here! Consider joining one or more of the challenge threads under "Chicks Up for a Challenge": 
