Hello :D
So, I've been lurking on this forum for a while now, but I'm not a talker, so I don't reply to posts or start threads, I just read what everyone has to say.
I was trying to send someone a private message congratulating them on what an awesome job they've done so far, but I can't actually send the message to them until I've written ten posts, so I'm trying to fill the requirement now.
Now, for the intro.
The following is probably too heavy for an introductory post, but I kind of feel like I need to let it out.
My name is Melissa. I'm turning twenty-two in August. I feel like the only time I was ever thin was when I was born (premature at a little under two pounds). I weigh 215 pounds now, but my highest was 255.
I've been struggling with my weight since I was ten when my mother first put me on the Atkins diet. It wasn't until the last few years that I actually wanted to lose weight. For myself. Instead of my mother wanting me to lose weight.
Kids don't know a thing about being healthy they don't know the consequences of the things they do, the choices they make, what they eat, how little they move around. I did not care about losing weight. I didn't know it was something I need to do, or at least I don't remember if I did know.
I just remember being a kid in elementary school and eating a small package of ham slices and a few pickles during snack time.
Somehow, I quit and wasn't made to go back on again until I was twelve. Lost sixty pounds. Quit.
Dad ordered Nutrisystem for himself, decided not to do it when it arrived, so I did. I don't quite remember if it was my choice or not. I lost sixty pounds, and some of my hair. Quit.
Graduated high school, started college. Decided to lose weight. Somehow found myself on Sparkpeople in 2010, learn about eating healthy (not that I follow all of their rules, but I do eat mostly healthy). I think I lost twenty-five pounds before I quit. I started back up again on January 17th 2012 and did pretty well. I lost seventy pounds in about a year, with the last couple of months of me struggling to stay on the lifestyle and going back and forth between eating awfully and eating awesomely.
I spent about five months not doing anything healthy.
Which brings me to now. I just restarted this all over again a couple of weeks ago. Back to eating mostly healthy, 1200-1250 calories a day.
I'm going to get a full summer membership at my local recreation center tomorrow. It costs more than a gym membership, but it includes a small fitness room and a huge indoor swimming pool in the cost, so I figure I'll find at least one thing I can stick to for the summer. I'll be able to use my university's gym and pool in the fall.
I'm a 5'1", pear-shaped woman. My goal weight is around 110, but if I end up liking myself at 115, that's fine, too. My normal range is 98-131 pounds, so I figure if I end up somewhere in the middle, it'll give me some wiggle room to lose or gain while I'm maintaining for my body to settle.
P.S. Sorry for typos or run on sentences. I don't really feel like rereading all of that right now. *hugs*
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