~2013 Fitness Journey~ Too Scared to Start, Too Scared to Stop.
...Because I just can't let the rest of my life get away from me like this.
Hi everybody. I'm actually feeling a little sick posting this here, haha; like maybe I should just keep this to myself and hope that I actually follow through on my own. Or maybe like I should just open up a private blog and hope that what I'm doing is right.
At the same time, however, I know that this is what I need. I'm not strong yet; I need to give and receive support if I want to follow through with this and stop putting it off to next monday, next month, next year, whatever. I need encouragement and guidance, and maybe, this is the best place for me to get that?
I'm seventeen, 165 lbs, 5''8. I grew up and stopped growing when I was eleven years old as a twiggy, long-legged bean pole. With a burning metabolism that suddenly began to slow, my eating habits never quite developed with me and I jumped into my teens on a steady diet of Mr. Noodles and Coca Cola. I played on the computer all day. I didn't even think about exercising and as I put on weight, deluded myself into thinking that it wouldn't be a necessary part of being health. All I had to do was eat this soup, or this many calories, or that many carbs, or whatever, to lose weight. To look like the Victoria's Secret model I desperately wanted to be, to be a fitness model.
LOL. No.
Thankfully, I've come to the revelation that this is not a one-time thing. I can't eat cabbage soup for a week and look like a banging 10' the rest of my life. I can't have cheesecake for dinner anymore. (Sad, sad truth.) I do actually need to go outside once in a while and, you know, move around. Sweat a little. Get gross and human-like, with the sweating and all that. I need to socialize and make friend with the people who want what I want, rather than with people who want what I used to be. (While deluding themselves that they still really want what I want to.)
I'm not watching my weight as much as my inches and my endurance, though it's a bonus I suppose. I'm not watching my calories as much as my macros, though they tend to coincide. I'll post my training and diet program next, so I can hopefully get a decent critique from you more experienced members. =)
Motivation? Cosplay. As dorky as that sounds. XD And zombies, but that tends to fall a little on the back-burner as far as actual possibilities go.
TL;DR - Fat teenager is tired of being a fat teenager. Doesn't like the odds of this generation's survival rate. Is desperately planning to attempt lifting/cardio regimen to look decent for FanExpo 2013.
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