[foreverfaye]

2 AM Fridge Raid = feeling sick to my stomach, inability to fall asleep and throwing off my entire schedule.
So today is day 14 of my journey and this AM was my 1st binge. I've overeaten during a couple of meals so far but no real 'mindless-gotta eat-' indulgence yet. My drug of choice is usually bread and cheese and I gorged myself on 670 cal in 10 minutes .
And then I tried to go to bed. Let me tell you, that was not happening. I was miserable for hours. There wasn't any position that I could lie in without feeling nauseous and at about 4 AM I seriously considered just making myself throw up to get some relief. I didn't but the way I felt this AM really shook me.
Two weeks ago, had I eaten what I ate, I highly doubt my stomach and my mind would've rebelled so much- I was easily eating 3-4 times that much junk daily.
This feeling is why I really want to get control of my binging. I asked myself if those calories where really worth it and the answer was an emphatic NO.
I know that this one AHA moment is not going to automatically fix me but's its definitely a motivator for me to actively face my problem with food.

Despite my lack of sleep, I got up this morning and went to the gym. Packed healthy food for my day. Reaffirmed my goals, my motivations and my strengths.

I moved forward.

Have a happy binge free day all!
Faye

[Zima]

I like that you still kept track of how many calories you had while binging! LOL! For me, it's just gorge, gorge, gorge, to **** with the calories!