Okay, been on my sumer long diet!!

Havent been using a scale (no access) but I've been dieting hardcore since June 11

However, these last two weeks, I've had 8 binge days O.o (Mon- Thurs)
5/8 of them, I was excersizing (1 hour 2 days, 2 hours 2 days, 3 hours one day).. but the binges have been anywere from 2,500 cal - 3,500 cal...
Cant tell how much weight I've lost or gained):
I'm going back home in a week, so Id like to get back on track by then...
but its so hard): I feel so guilty): I think I just lost all my progress:/
Some tips from getting back? I dont even think its an emotional thing.. it just feels like I'm losing the game):
Well.. I guess I just really needed to vent
Thanks y'all