Just to be accountable
Weird day. Apparently I'm shrinking. Luckily the girl who made that claim meant it in a good way.
It's been a long time since I posted something, but I needed a moment of clarity and accountability, so here we go.
I couldn't tell you how much I weighed at my heaviest. Because I refused to weigh myself. Conservatively I'd say 285. I lived abroad for a year and whittled myself down to 210. In the two years since I've rotated between working at losing and maintaining, and today I'm between 189-192.
But I'm feeling like the time has come to start pushing again and I've been struggling. It's not like I don't know what works for me, but it's been a challenge to make myself get back to those things - eating clean, food journal and workouts. (Actually the workouts have been going pretty well. I've just been running, but I'm really enjoying it)
So I decided to come here and put it in print to try to help myself gear up. I have to get back to journaling. The last 2 days my eating has been out of control, and I know that writing things down forces me to be more conscientious of my intake. Easy to say, but I've been avoiding.
For the first time I really feel ready to shift back into my losing mindset and finish my journey. And hopefully this post will help. Wish me luck!
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