How's it going? I came to this site a while back, but have fallen off the wagon BIG TIME over the last few months. I started my teaching career and the pressure of the job plus the hours required had me away from the gym and binge eating at happy hours to try and relieve some of the stress.
So here I am...I've managed to gain back 30lbs over the last 5 months. Terrible...
My turning point was actually 2 things.
1. I went to a funeral of a woman I have grown up with. She was only 68...not that old these days. Her health had been poor for the last few years, but I couldn't help but think that her weight was also a major factor (she died from heart failure). I saw her in the coffin and it made it very real to me. I am only 24 years old...but I am MORBIDLY obese. That word shouldn't have to be used to describe someone my age. My back and knees shouldn't hurt all of the time. I shouldn't get winded going up 2 flights of stairs. I'm killing myself. This may sound terrible, but I have started picturing myself in a coffin when I think about going back to bad habits or skipping the gym...because I WILL end up there sooner than I should if I don't fix this.
2. My relationship with my ex finally crashed and burned completely so I have been on a mission recently to get out there and date. I've gone on plenty of dates...some of the guys were nice and not too bad looking, but I wasn't interested in them for one reason or another. I've gone on a couple where I think my size was a factor in them not being interested in me, but for the most part that hasn't been an issue. The last date I went on I was really excited about. I met him on a dating website and he seemed super nice, funny, etc...and from his pictures I liked what I saw. Well...as horrible as this sounds, I wasn't attracted to him when I saw him. He was much much heavier in person than he was in his pictures. I realized that it's unfair to expect most guys to be attracted to me when I am doing the same thing and am not attracted to someone who was unhealthily overweight. I know there are those great guys out there who really don't care and I'm sure some of you all are dating them, but for me it hasn't worked that way. I know that my weight is holding me back in the dating world. My options would open up so much if I could just get control of this. And I feel that at my age, I am ready to really start looking to settle down.
So that's my story...my 2 main focuses when I'm reminding myself of why I'm making healthy choices. I look forward to hanging around these boards for inspiration, motivation, and fun.
Introducing myself...again
