Need to get back to the road..
Hey everyone..when i first started running, i did it outside, for monthssss. Now im running on a treadmill at my dads. I don't know what happened but i get nervous running outside now..i know this might sound weird. I started out running outside at 234lbs and didn't give a d*mn what anyone thought or anyone who saw me. Now im bouncing around 175-180 and it makes me nervous..a couple times I've been honked at, whistled at...& a hey baby..and it makes me really nervous..i feel like eyes are on me. lol. I also get nervous about if im running fast enough for my size..like it really matters what people in a passing car think if im running slow or not? It doesn't! I wanna get back to the road, i think you get a better work out running outside.. that's just me. & I no longer want to go to my dads to use the treadmill because i cant stand my brothers sk*nk girlfriend & i already got in a physical fight with her. & beat her a** by the way! lol... but I need and want to get back on the road..anyone have any ideas how i could over come this fear of mine? or whatever it is..& has anyone else felt this or am i a werido?? lol. Im feeling a** backwards with my feelings on this..
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