[spaghetticat]

When I am not dieting I can generally maintain my weight.. until I start to think about it... Such as oh ****, i can hardly button up my XL work shirt and they def do not have a 2xl, so they could special order, or i could ust go back on a diet..
Sounds good.....
And then I binge, and binge and binge, because I am worried since I am so heavy right now. At this very moment my tummy is hurting.. I didn't have a super crazy binge, 2 bowls of cereal and 2 slices of pizza, a glass of lemonaid and a bunch of water, but i just feel like i used to after a binge.

Anyways what is up with this? recognizing its time to diet and exercise again and eating more?? Bah. Also upsetting was so excited to be starting a new belly dancing dvd and it was so ****ty, like not even a workout. ugh.

Whyyyyyy is my brain like this?

[Kristen81985]

You and me both...and tons of others! I realized i wasn't focusing enough. Clear your mind and look at the big picture. Thats what I'm currently doing and it helps. Good luck!

[spaghetticat]

Thanks love!

[LovelyLeah]

I'm in the same boat. I struggle with balance. During the day, when I'm busy, I can go without eating anything and not really notice. But by the time I'm home all I can think about is food and I binge. Same thing happens to me when I diet but it gets pushed to the weekend. I think part of it for me is that I don't feel satiated with the small but more often meals that I do on a diet. And I think the reason for that is that I've gotten used to full means stomach hurts and not that full means I'm no longer hungry. I'm hoping that if I persevere and stay on track that I can eventually get my body used to knowing what full really means and then I won't feel so inclined to overeat.

[SlateGrey]

I binge too. Sometimes I just eat and eat, and I can't stop. Afterwards, my stomach hurts too, and I feel so awful and get so down on myself.

I don't know how to stop the binging yet. I just know that I've gotta try harder, but I'm not sure how.

I've just gotta pick myself up and try again.

You just gotta do the same thing. Pick yourself up and try again. No matter how many times we fall down, no matter how many times we binge, we've gotta just keep trying.

Weight loss/weight maintenance is a long term challenge. I worry that I will always binge every now and then. I worry that I won't be able to stop.

The only thing I know I can do is try again and try not to hate myself for those times when I give in and binge.

[Scoot]

Yep - like kristen81985 said - you, me, and millions of others!

I'm definitely in the "full-means-my-stomach-hurts" camp. No matter how hard I try, the many-small-means approach simply does not work for me. It just sets me up for failure. If I try to eat smaller meals more frequently, it's true, I never get hungry. But I almost never eat because I'm hungry anyway - I eat because I simply want to stuff my face - so that doesn't address the issue and I pig out eventually whether I'm hungry or not. So I go the intermittent-fasting way, and eat meals that are closer to my "normal" size (though not as enormous as I might prefer) during a smaller time window in the day. That's what works for me, personally.

One of my favorite quotes, in the saddest possible way, is from my favorite comedian - Louis C.K. He said, "I don't stop eating when I'm full! The meal isn't over when I'm full! The meal is over when I hate myself!"

And that, unfortunately, is kind of how it works for plenty of us. Just have to stay the course and keep trying different ways of managing it until you find the one that clicks, I guess!

[spaghetticat]

Thanks. I guess it has been soo damn long since I have had a bulimic episode or really felt eating disordered I thought maybe things were just going to go away. But at least they were gone for a few years give or take several months.

Thanks ladies, I appreciate your replies.