[MiZTaCCen]

I'm not trying to be bummed out today but I stepped on the scale and it's up to 164...(and I was going to keep it to myself but it's making me more upset so I need to support from you girls!) I know usually at night I weight more meaning I'm really 160 and I feel like such a loser and i'm totally upset that I gained 10 pounds. I know it's only 10 pounds but you know what 10 pounds that has been a b!tch to get off is now back. I was stuck at 164 for the longest time...now look where I am again...Probably mostly water weight...but still what if it's not?

The worst part about it, I'm going home in a few weeks and I feel like a failure and fear everyone is still going to see the fat girl I was when I went home back in April...I want people to be proud and say I look awesome, not tell me I'm still a fat ***! (Trust me they will). So now I'm stress and upset and sure I've starting Insanity and started yesterday but at the same time I can't help but dislike myself for seriously allowing these 10 pounds to come back on...Especially since I look disgusting when I'm bigger.

I'm totally down and needed to vent...Thanks for listening.

[krampus]

Try not to get too down on yourself, "relosing" feels shameful and difficult compared to "just losing" but it's the same exact thing. I think you'll feel better once you see some progress in the right direction, and as for the others...screw them, you know what's best for you. Nobody's perfect and there's really nothing to be ashamed of. Normal people's weights go up and down a 5-10 lb range throughout the year.

I know how sh!tty it feels though, every time I see photos of myself at 125 I get really upset.

*hug*

[theox]

If you stay on track and it's water weight - it'll probably come off pretty soon. If you stay on track and it's "real" weight - it'll still come off, it'll just take longer.

Don't beat yourself up. So you re-gained 10 pounds. Maybe not your greatest achievement, but you've caught yourself, have still achieved a net loss of 16 pounds, and have started getting back on track. And krampus is right - if people are going to be nasty and unsupportive, screw 'em. Even though your weight may fluctuate, your personal worth doesn't change. If people you're close to base their treatment of you on how you look (which can change many ways for many reasons) it might be worth figuring out how to insulate yourself from their boorish criticism or let those relationships cool.

[BassAckwards]

Ugh ... I feel you. I was stuck at 167 for soooo long and was getting soooo annoyed UNTIL I went on a not eating like I should trend and am now up to 171 ... now I'd take that 167 back please. I feel like I can't stop eating ... I'm really not doing THAT bad I don't think ... but I feel guilty every time I eat anything.

[fillupthesky]

sorry hun- i DEF know how that is...

but, it is what it is, and nip it in the bud. just get right back on track, on the wagon, and it'll come off. the hardest part is getting back on track when we're feeling so crappy, but you CAN do it.

as far as people in your life harassing you, i'm with krampus and theox- eff them. tell them to take a good long look in the mirror and when they're perfect, then they can say something to you...

xoxo hun

[MiZTaCCen]

Thanks guys BIG :hugs: sometimes a breakdown is needed and I think last night was mine. I feel better today about my weight, as you said nothing I can do right now other then get my a$$ back in gear and get back on track! :hugs:

Bass - I get like that not eating on days I look skinny but then I remind myself people who starve themselves always get fatter before getting thin and also you tend to binge **** of a lot more if you miss a meal! 167 will come back to you soon!

KRampus - You're right, its normal it's not like I went up 60, 70 pounds I'm stopping it before it get's worse.

Therox - You're right need to be happy I still have the weight I've lost and just breath and reboot to start over.

Fillupthesky - It's so weird it seems like in the beginning of the journey it was easy to do this, now it seems to get harder I don't get it and really once you go off track once to get back on it...ugh a pain!

Thanks again ladies!!!

[asweetchicagogirl1]

You are NOT a loser. Just get back on the horse....it will come back off and it is great that you caught yourself now rather than 40lbs from now, right? And as far as the people at home who will judge you? F*** them. This is about you and your health (though I know it would secretly be nice to have them all jealous of you).

It is hard to loose, isn't it? I know I got on the treadmill yesterday for my workout and I was so tired and out of breath. I just kept thinking, how the heck did I do this when I started and why isn't it any easier with the weight I've lost (mind you I've upped the intensity of my workouts but, still). I so wanted to give up, sit in front of the TV and veg out with mac'n'cheese. I didn't but it wasn't easy to say "no" at the time....I feel great this morning, however, and would have felt terrible if I had given up last night.

I guess I'm trying to say that you will make it through this with some grit and determination. We are here to support you.

[MiZTaCCen]

Asweetchic - Oh I know what you're saying and it is HARD to loose which at the same time I feel like I have yet can't quit won't give up because that's just something I can't do. Mentally anyways. I think I'm just pmsing and stressing and it's all just hit me at once and I just needed to let it all out instead of have it bottled all up inside.

[sockmonkey70]

Don't feel bad. Just recommit yourself and keep going. I have gained back almost 40 pounds of the 65 I originally lost. Yea it sucks. But I am refocused now and ready to get my sexy back