[sheramama]

My kids are finally in their own way telling me I'm fat. Case in point:

My 4 yr old son said I was "flat" but he meant fat. He also told me today he drew a pic of me at school but his friend made me look bigger. (who's mom is mayne 85lbs soaking wet no joke). At least this bothered him. THen he told me my stomach was too big but my eyes are pretty.

My 7 yr old daughter who is usually awesome about not saying anything and always says I'm pretty anyway told me I'm the only one she can't put her arms all the way around so her fingers touch. (Ouch. She didn't mean it as a put down but it hurt anyway.) Then she said later, "Let's see what's more squishy-mom's arm or the pillow. I told her not to say things like that bc it bothers mommy. I know she didn't mean it that way, but it stung nevertheless.

So ofcourse I end up going off the diet and hit not one but both my trigger foods. I popped gu in my mouth before it got too far and am still chewing. Aurgh. I don't like that my kids think that about me and the worse part it, it's the truth.

[Lovely]

Kids don't have the same ideas about things that adults do. They might take notice, but it's a pure observation. Strict science in a child's eyes. It has absolutely nothing to do with value or worth. That ball is green whereas the other is red. That person is tall whereas I am short. Etc. Etc.

You stopped. You're chewing gum. You made the decision to stop before it went any further. Be proud.

You're doing things now to take control of the food, and each day you're healthier. Your kids will notice when you lose weight, too.

[jmojica]

your children should be your ultimate motivation. Imagine how great you are going to feel when you lose the weight you need and have them feel proud of their mommy

[sheramama]

My motivation is to be healthy so I can stay around to be there for them. I guess I never wanted them to realize I was like this...I don't want them to be embarrassed of me and I will not let it get to that point. I will lose it before that.

[HeatherEljohari]

Dont worry about it. Allow the situation to be the motivation you use to get where you want to go. This isnt a permenant situation for you-you can and WILL change. But, please remember while it feels good to weigh less... something I have learned is feeling and being healthy is much more important. And remember weather you weighed 100 or 600 lbs your kids aint going to stop loving you.
Btw- my daughter says my tummy is like a pillow, its very comfortable

[sheramama]

Aw thanks Heather. My daughter and I did work out together today--Wii Just Dance and I almost forgot that exercise can be fun, especially when the kiddies are involved.